Chapter 119: Tyrant (12)
The smile on Qin Mingyue's face sank.
Xia Yu, who was sitting in front of her eyes with her eyes fixed, said this sentence in embarrassment, she grabbed Xia Yu's hand and couldn't help but squeeze it hard.
The corners of her mouth twitched again, and she said softly, "Ayu thinks... I did something wrong, right?"
Xia Yu could see that Qin Mingyue smiled very far-fetched, with dissatisfaction in her eyes, but she was just holding back.
"Mingyue, you hurt me a little bit."
Qin Mingyue let go of her hand. She had just been restless after being denied by Xia Yu, but she lost her mind for a while and didn't notice the strength in her hand.
Xia Yu's white and tender hand was scratched with conspicuous red marks, Qin Mingyue rubbed her hand distressedly, and said guiltily, "I just lost my mind."
"Does it still hurt?"
Hearing Qin Mingyue's careful questioning, Xia Yu hooked her fingertips and said, "It doesn't hurt anymore."
Qin Mingyue followed her and hooked her finger. Xia Yu's words just now were like a catalyst, which catalyzed the malicious thorns and vines in her heart.
It pained her.
"You're not wrong, Mingyue, but some things can't be easily concluded by just being right or wrong."
Qin Mingyue held back her emotions and said lightly, "So Ayu thinks I've done something wrong?"
Xia Yu was silent for a while, at this time Qin Mingyue felt something was wrong, she should stop this topic temporarily and go to appease her.
"Killing corrupt officials is right."
"Ayu still has something to say, let's say it together now?!"
"But Mingyue, you have to understand one thing. Corrupt officials can't be killed cleanly. Throughout history, in which year has there been no corrupt officials? Killing is enough."
Qin Mingyue put her hand away and said lightly, "Master Xia still thinks I did something wrong."
Has the name changed?
Xia Yu looked at Qin Mingyue's tense face and smiled bitterly.
"Killing some big greed can play the role of killing chickens and warning monkeys, but if you kill too many, everyone will be in danger and cause turmoil in the court."
Qin Mingyue suppressed her anger, with some anger in her eyes, and said coldly: "After all, Master Xia just thinks that I have killed too many people, right?!"
Xia Yu was silent again for a while, and lowered his head a little tired, rubbed his brows and said: "The disaster in Nanjun is dangerous, at this time, greed is just digging the foundation of Daqin, such people don't care about Daqin, and changing the dynasty is only in their eyes. It's just a change of master, and it really deserves to be killed."
Qin Mingyue's face softened a little after hearing this.
"Mingyue, it's my fault."
If she hadn't used her power to engage in partisan disputes with Qin Mingyue after taking power, then so many officials would not have died two years ago, and there would not have been a situation where no officials are available at this time.
If it wasn't for the turmoil two years ago, Qin Mingyue would have no problem killing all the corrupt officials, but now there are not many officials available to the court, so let's kill more...
Xia Yu clenched her fists irritably.
So it's all her fault!
Qin Mingyue didn't speak, Xia Yu closed her eyes and rested, and the hall became quiet.
After an unknown amount of time, Qin Mingyue spoke up.
"...you know what I'm mad at you for?"
Xia Yu opened her eyes and looked up at Qin Mingyue who was standing beside her. Qin Mingyue had no expression on her face, but looked at her with disappointment in her eyes.
"You'd rather believe those rumors than trust me more."
"Moon..."
"They said I was a tyrant, you believed it. They said I was bloodthirsty, but you believed it again!" Qin Mingyue looked at her and said through gritted teeth, "Ayu, Master Xia! You can't trust me more. ?"
Xia Yu watched her froze on the stool.
Do you trust Qin Mingyue more?
Yes, she looked at Qin Mingyue in front of her with her old eyes, because Qin Mingyue had been blackened by herself, so when Xia Yu heard those rumors, Xia Yu did not doubt the authenticity, and she believed all the preconceived ideas.
She didn't even investigate carefully.
How unfair this is to Qin Mingyue
He believed the rumors without asking for evidence and looked at Qin Mingyue with prejudice. What is the difference between this and those outside scholars who follow the trend and scold Qin Mingyue?
Xia Yu figured this out and lowered her head with a pale face. By the way, these are all arrogant faults. Because she is confident that she can see through Qin Mingyue's character and style of doing things, she is arrogant without knowing the truth. Evaluate from the bottom of your heart.
Others can do this because they don't know Qin Mingyue and have nothing to do with Qin Mingyue, but how could Xia Yu be so arrogant and cast a prejudiced look at her
She is the person Qin Mingyue likes, she is the person who likes Qin Mingyue!
Xia Yu's face became paler and paler, and all of her strength was exhausted in an instant, and she didn't dare to look at Qin Mingyue who was so close.
Qin Mingyue said about Nanjun in front, but she put a taboo on her back.
Qin Mingyue took a deep breath and smiled: "Maybe I'm not enough for you to trust me wholeheartedly?"
"I know who can kill and who can't. I have indeed killed a lot of officials in the past two years. I can understand your prejudice, Ayu."
"I killed all of your partisans, corrupt officials, and stinky fish and shrimps back then, but I didn't kill those who had the ability and had the same heart for the people of the world as you, but I didn't kill them because of your death. Just let them all resign."
Qin Mingyue's explanation did not make Xia Yu feel better, but made her feel even more uncomfortable.
My heart hurts like being cut by a knife.
Xia Yu didn't mention anything about two years ago, because she believed that with Qin Mingyue's character, she would be bloodbathed immediately after she was killed.
Those people she left behind will definitely be dealt with by her, after all, no one should like to leave troubles behind.
And she always felt that Qin Mingyue hated herself so much.
Qin Mingyue said: "You said that you also like me. I have a question that I have always wanted to tell you. Ayu, do you really know what kind of person I am? Do you really know me? "
Xia Yu looked up at Qin Mingyue and met her pair of black eyes. Qin Mingyue's expression was not ugly, but it was definitely not easy.
Looking at Qin Mingyue's eyes and looking at her, Xia Yu was shocked and began to think about what Qin Mingyue said.
Does she really understand Qin Mingyue?
At first, she met Qin Mingyue and got acquainted. She relied on her control of the plot. She preconceived that that was the character Qin Mingyue should have.
Even if there is more contact later, Qin Mingyue is just a stereotyped paper figure in her eyes. Because of her identity, she did not dare to get to know Qin Mingyue in depth, nor did she want to know Qin Mingyue as a person.
At that time, she thought that this world was her last stop, so she had a strong sense of vigilance against everyone, built a high wall in her heart, and only used a mask to face everyone.
She doesn't know the real Qin Mingyue.
I don't know why she is happy or sad.
She came back this time, but she still hadn't really gotten to know Qin Mingyue.
Better than the first time, she no longer regards Qin Mingyue as an NPC, but she still does not regard her as an independent individual.
In her eyes, Qin Mingyue is not only Qin Mingyue, she is Yu Sheng, An Yan, Wang Xue, Xiao Wenjin, Ke Yao, Ye Yueru!
There are too many shadows on him.
So at the beginning, Xia Yu didn't look at Qin Mingyue with the proper attitude and eyes!
"Looks like Ayu, you have the answer."
Qin Mingyue got the answer she wanted from the expression on her face covering her face in pain. She was in a panic, raised her head slightly, and felt her eyes warm.
She really wanted to question Xia Yu.
Since you don't know her, why say you love her!
what does she love about herself
She wanted to question happily, and wanted to ask Xia Yu aloud to let Xia Yu give her the answer, but she couldn't do it, because Qin Mingyue wanted to keep this feeling, even if it was not pure, it was more likely to be a lie.
Qin Mingyue wanted to cry.
She hated in her heart, hated it from a long time ago.
She hates herself why she is so humble and longing for a love!
She is a princess who is loved by thousands of people!
Now he is the emperor of the Great Qin Wanli Rivers and Mountains!
How can such a humble person carefully want to maintain a fragile and fragile love that is even a lie in itself
"You and I should both calm down for a few days?"
Qin Mingyue didn't dare to stay by Xia Yu's side any longer, she was afraid that she would lose control of her emotions and do things beyond her control.
Xia Yu didn't make a sound to retain her, and there was only the sound of Qin Mingyue's slow footsteps in the hall.
"Mingyue, you don't have to love me so humbly." Xia Yu's hoarse voice sounded, making Qin Mingyue stop.
"...I don't deserve to like you so much."
Xia Yu's voice was full of tiredness.
Qin Mingyue clenched her fists tightly and slowly released them, without saying anything, she strode forward two steps and pushed open the hall door and walked out to meet the light.
Facing the dazzling sunlight, Qin Mingyue's eyes shed a tear, and she felt so distressed that she wanted to squat down and cover her chest and be alone.
After Qin Mingyue left, Xia Yu slumped on the stool and leaned back weakly, looking down at her hands.
She is just a mediocre mortal, her childhood experience cannot be called excellent, and there is no particularly dazzling shining point. She does not understand why she is herself.
Why does Qin Mingyue like her.
She didn't even understand why the system would say such a thing in the end. She was obviously at an absolute disadvantage, and she should be the one with inferiority complex.
It was her who should be most insecure!
Everything is so unreal, like a dream, whether it's the words of the system or my own experiences over the years.
It's all so unreal!
Xia Yu has a lot of thoughts, guilt for Qin Mingyue, confusion, confusion and pressure from her liking, uncertainty about the future, and non-existent sense of security.
Everything turned into a poisonous mist, constantly corroding her heart, and the pain felt like being lingered.
There is no answer, no self-enlightenment, self-denial, and the inferiority complex that has existed since childhood as a gangrene of the identity that was abandoned at birth.
Do you really know me?
Xia Yu maintained that action, her eyes were blank, some deep negative emotions in her heart drowned her, and her face was still pale.