Chapter 126: Tyrant (19)
Xia Yu stared blankly at Qin Mingyue, who was approaching her. The distance was extremely close. She was forced to bow her head and took a step back, but Qin Mingyue grabbed her wrist and raised it.
"Master Xia is going to run away?" Qin Mingyue's anger that had never disappeared flashed in her eyes, she stepped forward again, next to Xia Yu, and said in a tight voice, "But where can you escape to? Master Xia is so smart, even if you lie to me, you won't let me see the clues, right?"
"I did not lie to you."
"Then why, Master Xia, you can always be so light-hearted?" Qin Mingyue asked excitedly, Xia Yu frowned and wanted to cry out in pain.
"You won't be sad for me." Just like changing her face, the excitement on Qin Mingyue's face disappeared, and suddenly she became sad: "You won't be sad because of me, like me or dislike me, there is no difference to you. ."
"you misunderstood!"
"Misunderstanding!" Qin Mingyue raised her voice and said angrily, "I am by your side every day, and I can see your every move. I just met you, and I met you again a year ago. It's always been so calm!"
"You keep saying that you like me, but in fact, it doesn't make much difference to you with me or without me, right?"
Qin Mingyue lowered her head and said dejected words, but her hands were so strong that she almost crushed Xia Yu's bones. She lowered her head, hidden by the darkness that could not be seen clearly, concealed the anger that was still suppressed.
"It's very different!" Xia Yu experienced the pain from the wrist, but her mind became much clearer, and said: "You mean a lot to me, I can accept being separated from you, I know that you love me, then enough."
Qin Mingyue took a deep breath and sarcastically said, "Let go? Master Xia, your love is really great."
Xia Yu's eyes turned red at some point, she looked up at Qin Mingyue: "You are wondering, you are uneasy, I don't understand why I suddenly said that I like you two years later, what exactly I like about you, and I am afraid that I will treat you My feelings are all disguised, but have you ever thought about what you like about me?"
Xia Yu took a deep breath and whispered, "I am nothing now."
Xia Yu also didn't understand what the 'God' liked her, and was willing to go to such troubles.
"You don't know what I like about you, you're afraid, but I'm also afraid! Compared with you, I have used you and hurt you, don't I feel uncomfortable when I approach you? Are you afraid?"
Xia Yu just looked very strong, because she had to be strong, and from the beginning she could only rely on herself.
The so-called strength and calmness are just a protective shell that is placed outside to disguise oneself.
She has been hurt from all sides since she was a child. In the dark, she still maintains optimism and positivity, because she doesn't want to sink in the dark for a lifetime, life is so short, she doesn't want to spend it all on unhappy things, it's better to escape, It's okay to be paralyzed by yourself, don't care anymore.
The experience of several generations did not hurt her too little. Before she entered these worlds, she was just a little smart ordinary person.
Did she want to let go?
Is she willing to restrain herself and calm down when she hears that Qin Mingyue is going to marry the Queen Concubine, and look at the problem from the perspective of others?
Is she willing to endure it and show people with a smile all the time?
If so, who would want to live like this?
The grievance also welled up in the eyes, and it fell in sourness.
She also wants to be headstrong, not to think so much, right or wrong, not to think about how others will see it, but she is afraid that the troubles she will bring to others will kill her feelings.
I'm more afraid that I'm just being self-indulgent.
"Don't cry."
Qin Mingyue panicked, watching Xia Yu cry out of control in front of her, then she released her hand and took her into her arms.
She was a little annoyed.
The inherent impression that Xia Yu gave her was self-confidence, Zhizhu was in her hand, and she did not panic, even if the next moment told her that the sky was about to fall, she would not be nervous.
Because it was Xia Yu who cleared obstacles for her, Xia Yu taught her many things, and blocked countless spears and arrows for her, so when facing Xia Yu, she would subconsciously think that she was insufficient and not perfect.
She was afraid that Xia Yu would leave and at the same time doubt her, that she had to approach him because of some kind of interest, and that once she got what she wanted, she would leave as mercilessly as before.
In her eyes, it is almost perfect, comparable to a person of gods, Qin Mingyue never thought that her real side would be so fragile.
"what do you like about me"
"...At first, I just thought that you were a good match for me. I couldn't help but look at you. The more I watched, the more I understood. I actually envy you." Qin Mingyue said slowly, holding her tightly. Xia Yu's hand: "You are very confident and have the ability to support your self-confidence. The freedom and freedom on your body is what I yearn for most."
Qin Mingyue was more curious about why Xia Yu liked her, or fell in love with her after she didn't interact with her, but she was afraid that Xia Yu would be uncomfortable, so she kept it in her heart.
Confidence and freedom
Xia Yu almost thought she was talking about someone else, she never thought she was such a person.
She was silent for a second: "Did you find out?, I'm completely different from what you think."
"What I just said is just the reason why I found you. No matter what you are, I... can't control myself to like you."
Xia Yu was not satisfied with Qin Mingyue's answer, maybe what she wanted to ask was not Qin Mingyue, but her.
Xia Yu regained her composure. The wet feeling on her face made her feel uncomfortable. She couldn't remember how long she hadn't really cried.
There was a good laugh in my heart, laughing at how long it would take to raise my qi before I could get home.
"Actually, I don't blame you anymore."
Qin Mingyue said softly: "Although it is difficult for me to accept the matter of the emperor, I know that you and I have different positions at that time. As the ultimate beneficiary, I have no right to blame you."
This was the most unacceptable part of Qin Mingyue a year ago. She blamed Xia Yu for not reminding herself, but even more blamed her own existence. If it weren't for her, Xia Yu would probably be devoted to her imperial brother and assist him with all his strength.
Either way, she couldn't accept it.
It wasn't Xia Yu who did it.
It was hateful, but she couldn't put the cart before the horse. At that time, many people knew about it, even her father, I was afraid that someone knew that someone planned to kill Qin Minghao, but he didn't expect Qin Minghao to not carry it. The personal guard he assigned to Qin Minghao was like a piece of paper.
Xia Yu was obviously stunned in place.
Qin Mingyue, she actually said she didn't blame herself
"Ayu, I can fool others but not myself, I really like you!"
"I want you to be the queen."
Xia Yu's eyes changed slightly, and she probably knew what happened to what Chu Yanyun knew and told her.
Qin Mingyue was not trapped by anger and hatred for too long, but she was also unable to hold back her face. She didn't know how to reconcile with her, and she probably still had guilt towards Qin Minghao in her heart.
But a year has passed, and she eats and does not move. Qin Mingyue should wait until she is impatient, and she will have an idea when the courtiers write from time to time.
Chu Yanyun's place should be the news that Qin Mingyue deliberately released, wanting to test his attitude.
Qin Mingyue wanted to test whether she really liked her, and whether she would be jealous when she heard the news that she was going to marry Queen Concubine Na.
But it's too well dressed.
So she couldn't sit still.
Qin Mingyue, who was watched by Xia Yu, looked away in embarrassment and looked elsewhere.
Xia Yu, who had figured out the whole story, shook her head amusingly, and said helplessly, "Mingyue, why did you make such a bad plan?"
Qin Mingyue pursed her lower lip, rather unhappy: "It is indeed the last resort for you."
Xia Yu said softly, "I'm not used to showing my emotions on my face."
Qin Mingyue raised her eyebrows and said, "In the carriage returning to the palace from Chu's house, who was hugging Bengong and calling Mingyue tenderly, and who said affectionately to Bengong that I miss you?"
After a year, Qin Mingyue couldn't help but think of that scene every day. Every time she thought of how cold and hard she was in the face of Xia Yu's tenderness, she would regret it to the death.
Mainly Qin Mingyue, she didn't expect that she would quarrel with Xia Yu so soon, and she didn't expect that Xia Yu's gentle and sassy attitude was only temporary.
Xia Yu was stunned, her blush stained her cheeks, and she was embarrassed for a while.
At that time, there were many reasons for her to show affection towards Qin Mingyue. To say that she showed her emotions on her face was not really considered, because her attitude at that time was more to appease Qin Mingyue's emotions.
"A-Yu likes to keep everything in her heart, and she's willing to tell me when she's done everything, but I'm just a mortal, and I can't read minds. A-Yu doesn't tell me anything, so how can I understand what A-Yu is bothering about? what do you think?"
Qin Mingyue did not continue to make fun of Xia Yu, but changed her tone and turned to her own heart disease.
"Ayu, I'm a mortal, and you are just a mortal, why do you want to be perfect in everything, just add to your own troubles"
"If you keep things in your heart for a long time, they will become secrets. How many secrets can one person tolerate. I like you, Ayu, you like me too, aren't you and me lovers? Why don't you believe me, Ayu? Try to talk out all those worries."
"In front of me, Ayu doesn't have to worry all the time. In front of me, you can be your true self. No matter what Ayu is like, I… like it!"
Xia Yu looked complicated, Qin Mingyue looked at her expression without embarrassing her, but said: "I know it's difficult to let Ayu rest assured, but you can take your time and try to show off in front of me. true self."
"Before me, you can be more willful."
Every word of Qin Mingyue fell into Xia Yu's heart. Xia Yu couldn't tell how she felt now, and she didn't know how to respond to Qin Mingyue.
"It seems to be very late." Xia Yu looked away from the topic.
Qin Mingyue was stunned for a moment, very disappointed in her heart, but she still forcibly cheered up: "It's really late, is Ayu going to rest? Yes, Ayu has rested at this time in the past."
Xia Yu nodded.
"Then...Ayu and I go back?"
"In the middle of the night, it's not proper for me to follow you back to the Ziwei Palace from the Cold Palace." Xia Yu shook her head helplessly, and she said, "Actually, it's pretty good here, but it's a little deserted."
Qin Mingyue stared blankly at Xia Yu.
Seeing the shock and grievance in her eyes, Xia Yu knew that she had misunderstood, and quickly said: "It's not what you think, but I'm used to living in the Hall of Fragrance, and now I'm too lazy to move my nest, so I live in the Hall of Ziwei with little status. Originally it was not in line with the rituals, the Fragrance Hall is very good, but you have to go around like that every day when you are suffering."
"Whatever the etiquette is not in line with you, you are still with me, and you still care about what those etiquettes do." Qin Mingyue said unwillingly: "Fenfang Hall is too biased, and here... No, Ayu, if you don't want to live in Ziwei Hall, it's okay. Change another one, but the Fragrance Hall should not continue to live."
Xia Yu was speechless for a while, she really didn't want to move around, although she didn't need her to clean up.
Seeing that she didn't speak, Qin Mingyue asked thoughtfully, "How is Fengming Palace?"
Xia Yu looked up at her.
Seeing that Xia Yu did not refute, Qin Mingyue's mind became active, and continued: "Fengming Palace is not biased, and it is big, how about living in Fengming Palace?"
Qin Mingyue said with a smile on her face, and there was still hope in her eyes that she would agree. Xia Yu was embarrassed to say it.
And Fengming Palace...
It is the residence of the Queen of Daqin.
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