Chapter 20 Because I am too weak, a notorious scumbag
The definition of good and evil is vague, so how can we judge it? Should we just define it based on our own likes and dislikes?
This is not good, it is great evil, a kind of indifference that puts personal will above the lives of others.
"So, little Lu Kai, let me ask you again, why do you want to become stronger?" Olin continued to ask.
Yes, why do you want to become stronger?
To escape from that cage?
But now that I have escaped from the cage, why has my desire for strength not only not diminished, but has become stronger?
For revenge? Revenge is only a small part of Lu Kai's desire to become stronger. Even if his revenge is achieved, Lu Kai will still continue to seek ways to become stronger.
Why is that? Because I'm too weak? It seems to be true.
Because I am too weak, I cannot protect Rubis and I cannot kill the Celestial Dragons to avenge her.
Because I was too weak, I almost died at the hands of the Lusides.
Because I was too weak, I would be caught in the flour factory.
Because I was too weak, I was enslaved and tortured.
Because I am too weak, I cannot help those enslaved children.
Because I was too weak, I couldn't kill the Luside couple, and I almost died at the hands of Luo Fei.
Because I am too weak, I have to go through all this.
Unconsciously, Lu Kai had already attributed all his misfortunes to his own weakness.
And I formed a belief: as long as I am strong, I can change everything and get rid of all the pain and torture, but if I am not strong enough...
If he is not strong enough, all the torture he suffers will haunt him like a nightmare, as if dragging him back into the abyss. Only by constantly getting stronger will he feel at ease.
The desire to become stronger has become an instinct for Lu Kai, and has been integrated into his beliefs and life.
But it was difficult for Lu Kai to explain it in words. He only knew that he had a strong fear of his lack of strength.
After organizing his words, Lu Kai suddenly spoke word by word, gritting his teeth, "I don't want to give anyone the chance to imprison me, abuse me, or torture me. Only when I become stronger can I escape from the abyss forever and completely get rid of all this pain."
As Lu Kai said this, his eyes were extremely cold and he clenched his fists tightly, as if it was an oath to himself, or even more like an accusation against the world. The hatred was so strong that it made Olin and Fuya feel cold all over, but it also made them feel strong empathy.
Imprisonment? Abuse? Torture? Abyss?
Olin and Fuya both saw strong shock in each other's eyes, and Fuya's eyes turned red instantly, with tears welling up in her eyes.
Fu Ya’s perspective on Lu Kai is different from that of others. On the contrary, she firmly believes that the reason why Lu Kai is so murderous is that he must have experienced inhuman torture, otherwise it would not be possible.
At the same time, Fu Ya was full of curiosity about Lu Kai and always wanted to know what he had experienced, but she did not dare to ask, for fear of touching on Lu Kai's sad past.
Others are afraid of Lu Kai, but Fu Ya only feels distressed for him and firmly believes that Lu Kai is kind by nature and would never hurt her.
So apart from Olin, who is strong and not afraid of Lu Kai, Fu Ya is the only one who overcomes his fear of Lu Kai and takes the initiative to approach him and take care of him in every possible way.
Now that she had finally gotten Lu Kai's confirmation, Fu Ya could only feel distressed. He was only eight years old. What kind of torture could have made him say such words with gritted teeth?
"Little Lu Kai, can you tell us about your past?" Fu Ya suddenly asked.
This time Fu Ya was not here for gossip, she just wanted to get to know Lu Kai better and know how to help him better.
"I... dare not tell you, for fear of scaring you." Lu Kai said in a dilemma.
Olin sneered and said, "Little Lu Kai, you look down on us too much, don't you? Haven't we seen any storms? No matter what you say, it's impossible to scare us."
Lu Kai remained silent.
Fu Ya said very considerately: "Little Lu Kai, if you don't want to say it, then don't say it. It's okay. But if you are worried about us, then there is no need. I am not afraid of anything."
"Okay!" Seeing how confident Olin was, and seeing how much Fuya cared about him, Lu Kai didn't intend to hide it from them anymore, and said, "Actually, it's very complicated, but the source of everything has to start from when I assassinated the Celestial Dragon two years ago..."
"Puff... cough cough..." Olin, who was drinking water with a calm smile just now, was choked suddenly, and then he couldn't control the water in his mouth and sprayed it out.
In the end, he looked at Lu Kai as if he were a monster, his eyes full of fear.
Two years ago, when I was five or six years old, I assassinated a Celestial Dragon.
What is going on in this world? Is there something wrong with my ears? Am I asleep or awake? This must be a dream, right?
Lu Kai was not surprised to see Olin's extreme reaction, because he had said that on purpose.
Firstly, Lu Kai believed that Olin and Fuya were trustworthy, so he just said it. Besides, even if ordinary people heard someone talking about the Celestial Dragons, they would just stay away and would not report it.
After all, no one wants to bring trouble upon themselves. The person who reported it will most likely be liquidated by the Tianlong people. Want to climb up the ladder? It's impossible, because the people in the lower world are not human beings in the eyes of the Tianlong people.
Secondly, the brother and sister had been so nice to him over the past seven days that Lu Kai didn't want to lie to them, so he just opened his mouth and made a bold statement.
If they are willing to continue listening, Lu Kai will naturally continue talking. If they are afraid to listen, Lu Kai will never mention anything about himself again.
Third, Luke still has a strong desire to seek revenge on Saint Dorjila. What if he gets too deeply involved with Olin and Fuya and they get implicated?
The better the brother and sister treated Lu Kai, the more unwilling Lu Kai was to put them in danger, so he simply scared them away.
However, at this moment, Fuya suddenly asked, "Who are the Celestial Dragons?"
"The Celestial Dragons are..." Lu Kai was about to explain.
Olin interrupted Luke, clenched his teeth, and said with undisguised hatred: "A bunch of trash, the parasites of the world, doing all kinds of evil, notorious scum."
After hearing what Olin said, Lu Kai couldn't help but have a weird look on his face. "Brother, I just need to scold you. Is it really okay for you to scold me too?"
But I have to say that at this time, Lu Kai was actually a little touched.
"Is there really someone so bad?" Fu Ya said in surprise, covering her mouth with one hand.
"Yes!" A cold voice sounded, and it was still Olin who answered him.
Fuya couldn't help but look at Olin with unprecedented eyes.
Because at this moment, Olin gave her an unprecedented sense of strangeness.
She had never seen the usually gentle Olin show such a murderous and cold look.
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