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"To me, that's freedom."
"It is the freedom to be unfettered and completely control your life."
"I have been restrained for too long. Growing up, my parents never let me do anything I really wanted to do. This led me to have an extreme desire for freedom, something I had never had. eager."
"I know this desire is not normal, maybe even a little misshapen."
"I don't want this abnormal desire to affect my normal judgment of feelings for Wang Ge. For this reason, I have asked my heart many times."
"What exactly do I want?"
"Is it the beauty that is within reach as long as you hug the person in front of you, or is it the desire for freedom that is deep in your heart?"
"What does the freedom I want look like?"
"Is it enough to just leave this family? Is it enough to be able to do something you like freely?"
"Through repeated self-questioning, self-reflection, and self-examination, I got the answer."
"In the face of freedom, love and all the beauties it brings are so fragile, small, and vulnerable."
"Freedom is the entire meaning of the existence of this person named Chen Yanxi."
"Wang Ge likes me, doesn't that just mean he likes me? If one day, I give up my insistence on freedom, then the Chen Yanxi that Wang Ge likes will disappear, leaving behind nothing but ordinary people. A body without distinction."
"Then he won't like me anymore, and the good things he brought to me will be shattered like a bubble."
"Like I said above."
"In this way, the logic is closed."
"And the freedom I want is definitely not that simple."
"Promise Wang Ge, of course I can rely on his strength to easily break away from the shackles of the family. But in this way, I will owe him something, our relationship will no longer be equal, and our feelings will no longer be pure."
"Isn't this just jumping from one cage into another?"
"All intimate relationships are a kind of shackles. I always liked to say this sentence before. Now, as my thoughts become more mature, I want to add a prefix to this sentence."
"All unequal intimate relationships are a kind of shackles. The deeper the bond, the stronger the shackles."
"It's not that I can't be with Wang Ge. There is no conflict between freedom and love, but it must be based on equality."
"I am not ignorant or inflexible. If I were a mediocre person with nothing to do, if I was incapable of breaking free from the shackles of my family, I would naturally ask Wang Ge for help."
"But since I have the ability, I have to rely on my own ability to gain freedom."
"In this way, when we meet again one day in the future, I can stand opposite him as an equal and accept with a smile this incomparably pure emotion that is completely composed of like and love."
"I might be with him, but definitely not right now."
"..."
"After reading the above diary again, I suddenly realized that I am really a selfish person."
"Relationships should be a matter between two people, but I have been thinking about myself."
"I need to reflect."
"..."
"I reviewed myself again and found that I didn't consider Wang Ge, probably because of that girl named Gu Panyan."
"I thought I didn't care about it, but I still felt a little uncomfortable and a little bit resentful towards Wang Ge, so I subconsciously didn't consider his feelings just now."
"——Obviously before, I always thought about compensating him or something."
"From this point of view, this may be regarded as 'jealousy'?"
"It's an interesting feeling."
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Chapter 48: Can’t girls like girls?
The next day, around nine o'clock in the morning, Wang Ge just woke up.
When he finished cleaning up and left the room, he saw Chen Yanxi, neatly dressed, sitting on the sofa in the living room reading a book.
"woke up?"
Seeing him come out, Chen Yanxi closed the book, stood up and said, "Breakfast is in the pot. Please wait for a while and I will heat it up for you."
"Love you."
Wang Ge expressed his feelings to Chen Yanxi.
Chen Yanxi smiled slightly and walked into the kitchen.
Wang Ge sat on the sofa, took out his mobile phone, and casually sent a message to Gu Panyan:
"Yanbao, good morning."
Gu Panyan didn't reply, and Wang Ge didn't care and picked up the book Chen Yanxi was reading just now.
"Wealth of Nations".
This was bought for him by his brother. In addition to The Wealth of Nations, there are several other very classic economics masterpieces. He hopes that he can read them when he is free, so that they can be useful when he manages the company in the future.
Unfortunately, he had no idea of managing the company. Ever since his brother bought it for him, it had been gathering dust on the bookshelf. This was the first time it had been opened since it came to Wang Ge's house.
After flipping through it twice, Wang Ge put the book back.
He's really not interested in this kind of thing.
Looking at Chen Yanxi wearing an apron and busy in the kitchen, a warm smile appeared at the corner of Wang Ge's mouth.
Without letting him wait long, Chen Yanxi came out with a bowl of noodles:
"Eat."
"It smells good."
Wang Ge smelled it and immediately moved his index finger, "Then I won't be polite."
Although it was just a bowl of simple noodles, Wang Ge felt that Chen Yanxi's cooking tasted better than his own. Whether it was for psychological reasons or because Chen Yanxi's cooking skills were so good.
"Aren't you going to work part-time? Why didn't you go?" Wang Ge said vaguely while eating noodles.
"Let's go now." Chen Yanxi took off her apron, "If you get up later, I won't care about you and will go directly."
"So you were waiting for me specifically?"
"I didn't bring my cell phone, I had to tell you."
Chen Yanxi shook his head and said, "If you go out to play and lock the door, I will have nowhere to go."
"Haha, that's what I was worried about, don't worry."
Wang Ge laughed and quickly finished the noodles.
Putting down the bowl, wiping his mouth, he smiled and said: "Let's go, I'll take you to work. I don't know where you work yet, so I just want to go and take a look."
"Alright." Chen Yanxi did not refuse.
Wang Ge pushed out his bicycle from the parking lot again and took Chen Yanxi to work.
On the way, he asked casually: "Xixi, what are you doing?"
"Working as a waiter in a cafe."
"Cafe? What kind of cafe? Maid cafe?" Wang Ge's eyes lit up.
"...What are you thinking about?" Chen Yanxi sighed helplessly, "It's a cat guy."
"Cat cafe?" Wang Ge's eyes lit up again, "Then do your cat cafe's waiters wear small skirts, cat ears, etc.?"
"Ordinary waiters can, but I can't."
"Ah? Why?" Wang Ge asked rather unwillingly.
"Because I am the foreman." Chen Yanxi said.
"what?"
Wang Ge was shocked, "You, a person who only works part-time every two weeks, can actually be the foreman?"
"Because I'm quite popular. I heard from the store manager that every time I go to work part-time, it's the time when there are the most people in the cat cafe."
Chen Yanxi said calmly, "I'm not used to being stared at by so many people in those clothes, so I wanted to resign. In order to keep me, the store manager promoted me to foreman so I don't have to wear those clothes anymore."
"You are indeed my idol. You can make a living just by looking at him."
Wang Ge rode with one hand and gave a thumbs up to Chen Yanxi in the back seat of the car with the other hand.
Then he sighed and said: "It's a pity, I still want to see what you look like wearing those cute clothes."
Chen Yanxi thought for a while: "My suit is still in the store. If you want to see it, I can wear it for you."
"Really?" Wang Ge's spirit suddenly shook.
"When have I ever lied to you?"
Seeing Wang Ge so happy, Chen Yanxi also had a smile in her voice.
"Great!"
Wang Ge cheered.
With the power, I feel more energetic when pedaling the bike than before.
Soon, he drove Chen Yanxi to the cat cafe where she worked.
As soon as I walked in, several customers greeted me:
"Yanyan, you're here."
"I've been waiting for you for a long time, Yanyan!"
"Yan Yanzi, look at me!"
Chen Yanxi nodded to them and said to Wang Ge behind him, "I'll go to the back to change clothes. You can sit here and play for a while. Tell me what you want to drink and I'll get it for you."