Chapter 32 Back View
Chapter 32 Back View
Wang Zixu walked briskly on the road, still immersed in the happiness of doing good deeds every day, and had no idea that Director Mei had given him the verdict of being an "official-obsessed".
If he knew, he would be very angry that his spiritual world was misinterpreted. So it's a good thing that he doesn't know. Because even if he knew, there would be nothing he could do.
As mentioned before, Wang Zixu's bad luck in life is due to the word "opportunity". In fact, this is a more euphemistic way of saying that he was really tortured to death.
This story began 8 years ago when Wang Zixu was admitted as a civil servant at the age of 8.
He graduated from a prestigious university, was full of energy and good-looking, and his leaders considered him a potential cadre. That was the golden age of Wang Zixu's life.
Half a year later, the local government launched an institutional reform, and it was rumored that the nature of Wang Zixu's unit would change, and the status of all regular staff would be converted to public service positions.
There is a huge gap between the career system and the administrative system. Not only is the treatment very different, but there is also a gap in promotion. It was as if the living room of Wang Zixu's house was struck by lightning. A hole blew out on the floor and the whole family almost fell in.
His father gave Wang Zixu a Big Harvest cigarette, so he learned to smoke. The father and son squatted in the toilet, turned on the exhaust fan and smoked all night. Finally, the father said, I know an old classmate who is in administration, maybe there is a way.
My father treated the old classmate to two meals. He drank Daoxiangcun and made the old classmate drunk. Then the old classmate and my father rekindled their old friendship, hugged each other like brothers, and promised to help Wang Zixu solve the problem.
What the old classmate meant was that the institutional reform has not yet been implemented and the "three-fixed plan" has not yet been issued. As long as Wang Zixu is transferred to another unit before the nature of the unit changes, he will not be converted into a public institution system.
So they began to carry out the preparations in full swing. Under the guidance of their old classmates, they prepared cigarettes, alcohol, shopping cards, went up and down, met many important people, smiled a few times, and even vomited some wine. Finally, the matter had some progress.
Everything was going smoothly, but for some unknown reason, Wang Zixu's transfer documents were held up and were not released until the job assignment documents came out. At this time, he had already been relegated to a civil servant position, and even if he changed jobs, he could not return to his original status.
The father and son went to a new company, but the new company refused to make changes. They went to their old company, but the old company didn't want to take care of the matter. In the end, it was a mess, and Wang Zixu ended up being a civil servant.
The old classmate disappeared in an instant, and even the phone call was unreachable. The father squatted at the door of his unit and finally caught him once. The man said impatiently, I can only guarantee that your son can be transferred, but I can't guarantee when he will be transferred. Besides, even if things are agreed, it is common for them not to be done in the end.
He added, "You keep asking me to give you a guarantee. Remember, no one can give you a guarantee. What the superior can provide you is just an opportunity. Not all opportunities will succeed, but at least I give you a chance. If you don't want an opportunity, there are plenty of people who will fight for it. You can only choose to accept it or give it up."
The wife could not accept the reality, but was unwilling to give up. She quarreled with Wang Zixu at home, smashed the table and bench, and criticized Wang Zixu for being unreliable, not knowing how to manage things properly, and lacking basic political skills. She still didn't know who she had offended.
Wang Zixu felt very aggrieved and asked, "What political skills do I have? I just turned 22, and what's the point of saying this now? What political skills do career people need?"
The wife cried bitterly and refused to give in. She made him kneel on the ground and swear that he would change his status back to a civil servant in his lifetime. The man she married was a civil servant, not a career-based employee. Wang Zixu's transfer was shelved because the new leader of the unit had a very bad impression of him and criticized him every now and then. All this made Wang Zixu extremely depressed, so he turned to his father to vent his anger.
He blamed his father, saying that you should have some idea in your mind. Since you are not on the same level as your old classmates, you should not trust their friendship. Why did I want to make connections at that time, but you patted your chest and said no? Are you so confident that your face is more important than anything else? Who is the most educated person in this family? You always think you are the best. If you were really awesome, you wouldn't expect your son to be more successful than you.
Wang Zixu came here just to quarrel with his father and didn't give him any face at all.
He had endured it for 22 years, and had long been dissatisfied with his father's dualistic materialism. He had been preparing for more than a decade in his heart for today. He wanted to confront it head-on, untie the golden rope of the "cunt thing", and tear apart the jade lock of the "cock thing". He wanted to live his life in his own way.
With his understanding of his father, he had secretly prepared to take action. In Wang Zixu's memory, his father was an extremely strong-willed man. He had an extremely stubborn neck and never bowed his head in his life. He was arrogant and conceited. When Wang Zixu was six years old, he played Go with him and cried all night after losing, but he refused to give up a single game.
As a result, after Wang Zixu finished his endless chatter, his father was silent for a while, then with red eyes, he smiled haggardly and whispered softly:
"I'm sorry, Dad is old!"
Wang Zixu suddenly lost all fighting spirit and said in a hoarse voice that he wanted to go home.
His father asked him to wait a moment, then turned around tremblingly, revealing a back figure that Wang Zixu felt was a little unfamiliar. In his memory, his father's back was taller than this, and his hair was not so white. He took out two boxes of milk from the house, with a very street-smart and cunning smile on his face, and said, "These two boxes of milk were originally intended to be given to someone, but now that the matter cannot be done, let that idiot go. Son, take it back and drink it."
Wang Zixu felt that he was a loser. What day was it, but he only thought about feeding his son milk. But he was in no mood to talk about it. His throat was swollen, so he took the two boxes of milk and went straight home. As he walked on the road, he found that his face was full of tears, and the wind made him feel cold and uncomfortable.
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Wang Xiaobo said in The Golden Age that life is a slow process of being hammered and castrated. But Wang Zixu didn't think so. He felt that his father seemed to have been hammered in an instant.
When was he hammered? Was it when he was scolded in person by his old classmates? Or when he was fighting for Wang Zixu's identity? Or was it even earlier, when his mother divorced him, he was already hammered and became a man who only knew how to eat grass and work without temper?
When Wang Zixu was 22 years old, he realized two things. First, his father was no longer young; second, life was a huge vortex.
If he doesn't work hard to climb out of the whirlpool of life, he will sink deeper into it. Before drowning in life, he must try to grab every straw to pull himself out.
He tried every possible means not to be beaten down by life. He didn't want to wait until he was old and helplessly say to his children, "Sorry, Dad is old." In a sense, he was as stubborn as his father.
(End of this chapter)