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"I'm very curious about Mr. Fujii's past and want to hear his story."
"I see," Fujii Itsuki laughed, "Okay."
The story of going to Tokyo is a long one.
Excitement in one year, helplessness in two years, compromise in three years.
Fujii Itsuki started by talking about his graduation from university and then mentioned that he resigned and returned to his hometown a while ago.
“It turns out that the teacher grew up in an orphanage.”
“I don’t hate my parents.”
".Hey, why? They treated you like that."
"What's the point of resentment? Instead of wasting time resenting these two people I've never met, I should spend my time on myself. On the contrary, I should thank them. It was because of their choice that day that I got to know the director and everyone in the welfare home."
"The teacher is really open-minded, but why would he do that?"
"You mean my behavior that made Takashima lose face after I resigned?"
"Yes, if Mr. Fujii did that, even if the school apologizes to you, you won't be able to continue teaching in Tokyo."
That's good.
Matsumae Shinharu saw this point very accurately.
Fujii Itsuki also understood that even if what he did and all the events he described were true and just, it would still not be of any help to the future and would only have a negative impact.
Because no matter what, Takashima is his superior.
The subordinate did such a thing in front of his superior, making the superior lose face. In the eyes of the old-fashioned leadership of the school, whether it was right or wrong, it was an act of insubordination.
This means that he will basically have no chance of becoming a teacher in the future.
"I think you, Mr. Fujii, must be aware of all this, but why did you choose to completely turn against Academic Affairs Officer Takashima? If you had not torn things apart completely in the end, and you had simply resigned voluntarily, with your resume, as long as you could hold on for a few more years, you would definitely have a more exciting life in the future."
Indeed, why did I break the rules and choose to tell all the teachers and students in the school about the true face of Academic Affairs Officer Takashima when I knew the situation well?
Fujii Itsuki didn't think about this question at first, but looking back now, it only took him half a minute to come to a conclusion.
"Maybe, I just don't like being restrained."
“I don’t like being constrained”
Matsumae Shinchun lowered his eyes and repeated it several times in a low voice.
"Teacher, what counts as bondage?"
"Do what you don't want to do, and do what others want."
Fujii Itsuki recalled the past and added:
"Matsumae, you're right. If I had resigned at that time, it would have been very beneficial to my future life. But I just couldn't accept it. Why should I do work that I shouldn't do? Why should I be paid less for no reason and be treated with sarcasm even though I have completed my work in excess?
“Just because he is my boss? Just because he is my senior? Just because of these, he took the fruits of my labor as a matter of course and put his name on it?
"The reality is actually similar to what you just said, Songqian. Most teachers choose to swallow their anger for the sake of living. But I don't accept it. I hate this kind of behavior. His behavior makes me feel disgusted.
"I think that at that time, I didn't want to be bound by 'Takashima' forever, so I chose to resign that way--"
!
When Fujii Itsuki reached this point, he suddenly seemed to be choked by something in his throat and stopped talking abruptly.
"Teacher Fujii?"
He suddenly figured it out.
He finally knew what the problem was that had been bothering him these days.
It turns out that I returned to Otaru to escape my own failure.
The reason why I remained indifferent after hearing Teacher Ju Beique many times was that I was afraid of the past!
He is afraid of being rejected when trying to find a job again, which is equivalent to being afraid that society will completely deny him as a "teacher".
He suddenly wanted to laugh at himself.
It’s a pity that I had told Jiu Huayue before that I was now unemployed and was not bound by the identity of "teacher".
It turns out that there has always been a place for my past ideals in my heart.
The dream of opening a coffee shop is nothing more than an excuse to escape reality!
I simply don’t have the courage to face my past self as a teacher again.
"I'm sorry, Matsumae. Just pretend you didn't hear what I just said."
"Why? Isn't what Mr. Fujii said very well? I want to hear more from you."
"No it's nothing."
*
I don’t know why, but when I’m in a bad mood, the sky always seems darker than usual.
The last day at the Matsumae family ended in such an unpleasant atmosphere.
Until the moment of leaving, Matsumae Shinchun was still worried about his condition and asked to personally send the teacher home.
Fujii Itsuki refused.
The engines of the snowplows on the road bring the hustle and bustle of the city, and today's heavy snow has not stopped.
Fujii Itsuki wandered on the deserted streets and truly felt lost.
I thought I had let go of the past and abandoned my ideal of becoming a teacher. I returned to Otaru with the idea of starting a new life. But I didn't expect that the real reason I came back was to escape from my own failure.
It’s not that I’m not afraid of failure. Quite the contrary. It’s because I falsely deny my past failures that I can’t let it go.
It turned out that my idea of returning to Otaru, finding a random job to accumulate funds and open a coffee shop was simply an excuse for my inability to accept my failure.
What new goal is nothing more than an excuse to escape?
Before he knew it, Fujii Itsuki had returned to Kuka's house.
He habitually took out the key to open the door, but he didn't expect that when he just entered the inner room, he saw Jiu Huayue in the lobby, arguing with a middle-aged woman who was dressed very elegantly.
Jiuhua, that girl, still has tears in her eyes
Chapter 28: You will be absolutely envious!
"Yue, why don't you listen to what mom says? Mom is doing this for your own good."
".I don't listen."
"moon--"
"I didn't listen to you!"
Jiuhuayue looked like she was crying and hysterical.
And the middle-aged woman in luxurious clothes sitting opposite her, if Fujii Itsuki guessed correctly, was her mother.
It's not that I intentionally paid attention to the appearance of the mother and daughter, but when I saw them standing not far away, it was impossible not to notice their extremely beautiful faces.
Both mother and daughter are naturally beautiful, cut from the same mold.
Perhaps it was the sound of Fujii Itsuki opening the door that attracted the attention of the middle-aged woman, and when Fujii Itsuki saw the two of them, she noticed him.
"Yue, look, someone is coming. Do you think it's appropriate for you to show yourself in front of others like this? You are the Purple Flower!"
"What purple flower?"
Jiu Huayue clenched her hands, lowered her face, and spoke in a low voice, "You always say this. Besides this, what else can you say?"
"Yue, you want to say that I shouldn't reprimand you for behaving like this in front of strangers? You are wrong. This is the most basic etiquette and the most basic courtesy. You are the eldest daughter of the Jiuhua family and the one who truly inherited the Jiuhua family bloodline. You should pay attention to your image in public."
"Yeah, I'm arguing with you outside. I should pay attention to my image. I understand that it's all for others. Why don't you take someone else as your son or daughter? Why did you come to me?"
"Yue? What nonsense are you talking about? It's precisely because I care about you that I took a leave and flew here from Tokyo. Hey - Yue!"
The middle-aged woman wanted to reach out to stop her daughter, but she was powerless to stop her daughter from escaping to the second floor.
"Ugh"
She sighed and turned to Fujii Itsuki, who had been standing by without doing anything since a while ago.
Fujii Itsuki: "Did I disturb you accidentally?"
"No," the middle-aged woman sighed again. She turned to Fujii Itsuki and quickly straightened her mind. She smiled politely and asked, "You are Mr. Fujii, right?"
"You know me?"
"I am the mother of the child just mentioned. The child's father and I were once taken care of by the dean and are acquainted with him. She often mentioned you in her letters to us. From the letters, we can see that the dean trusts you very much, Mr. Fujii."
"Then why am I not aware of this matter——"
Mrs. Jiuhua smiled and said, "The director probably told you something before. When my husband and I were still in Otaru, you had just moved into the welfare home. We had never been back here for many years, so it was normal that you didn't know about our existence."
Mrs. Jiuhua is obviously not young, at least 40 years old, but she looks no different from a young woman in her 20s or almost 30s. She is well maintained and looks very young.
Fujii Itsuki frowned and recalled for a moment, "I remember you and your husband went to Tokyo to develop?"
"Yes," Mrs. Jiuhua lowered her brows slightly, and the crystal pendant on her right ear sparkled brightly. "That year we saw that Otaru's economic development would get worse and worse. Instead of living in this city with basically no future, it was better to go to Tokyo and give it a try. Yue's child was born during this period."
"Then she must have grown up in Tokyo. No wonder she speaks with a standard Kanto accent."
"That's not the case. She lived in Otaru for a while and later grew up in Hyogo Prefecture. I'm really sorry to bother you with taking care of her during this time. I'm really sorry to bother you."
"These are trivial matters. I have been very grateful to you for taking care of me these days."
Fujii Itsuki has always been curious about why Jiuhuayue chose to commit suicide that day.
Her mother must have a lot of information.
But he certainly couldn't ask directly, because after all, he had promised the girl not to tell anyone else about her affair, not even her mother.
"Well, Madam, the reason you came to see Jiu Huayue this time is..."
"Ah, sorry, I haven't explained this yet. I came here to bring Yue back to Tokyo."
"Back to Tokyo?"