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Qingyi narrowed her eyes slightly and couldn't help but scold: "This is what I hate most about you. Your admiration for women has never been a pure purpose, but a means!"

Simply put, it is utilitarianism. Being nice to a woman is never just about wanting to be nice to her, but about having a relationship with her.

She thought bitterly in her heart that this traitor was probably only respectful to his mother and had no reverence for other women, and even did not take the ancestors seriously.

Ye Hong couldn't help but complain in his heart, apart from his mother, being simply and unconditionally nice to a woman is the stupidest thing to do.

Because it is difficult for a woman to fall in love with a man just because he is nice to her. Some women are just touched but not attracted. You should know that the original motivation for girls to like boys is libido, original desire, and sexual power, which refers to the pleasure of all body organs and is the sexual driving force caused by human psychological phenomena.

He maintained a dignified attitude in front of her and retorted, "Master, you are wrong! The fact that our relationship has developed to the point where I can cling to your thighs is all thanks to my efforts, okay!"

Hearing this, Qingyi gritted her teeth and said, "You evil creature, how dare you say that!"

"Then tell me. If you can't explain it clearly, you should kneel down today."

Ye Hong shrank his head. "The first right thing I did when I was with you was to hug your waist subconsciously at the bottom of the lake."

Seeing Qingyi's increasingly terrifying look, he hurriedly continued, "If it weren't for the 'First Hug' that set the tone for our relationship, no matter how hard I tried or how good I was, I would still be just your disciple in your heart! By then, you would no longer take the feelings of a disciple seriously!"

"But on the other hand, no matter how outrageous the tone was at the beginning, it was basically repeated or upgraded later. You could say that this is how we get along from now on."

Qingyi was quiet for a long while, as if she had become a jade statue, her mind was in a trance, it turned out that she had buttoned the first button incorrectly.

Although this small mistake was insignificant compared to the big mistake that occurred later, it seemed to reflect the beginning of all the "mistakes" between the master and the apprentice.

Ye Hong straightened his back, "The second thing is that my talent is good enough. I am a genius but I have not neglected my practice. I have worked hard enough. After seven months, I have achieved double golden elixirs. I have grown to a point that even you, Master, cannot ignore!"

Qingyi sneered, "You are shameless and don't know what humility is!"

But we have to admit that this traitor is right.

"I only know that I should take on the responsibility!" Ye Hong immediately retorted, and then continued to narrate his own mental journey.

"Master, you know that men are yang and women are yin. When yin and yang intertwine, all things come into being. This is the truth of yin and yang. Yang is dynamic and yin is static, so most courtships are initiated by men. To put it more simply, in this world, most men take the initiative, while most women are reserved.

"If I had loved you but didn't dare to pursue you, it only means that I lacked masculinity and was cowardly!"

Just like I didn’t dare to express my love for my mother in the past.

"I also know that my cultivation was too low at that time. I tried so hard to show my kindness to you, but it actually reduced your favorability towards me, making you underestimate me and look down on me. This is a good way to suppress before promoting. In order to change this situation, I can only show my value in front of you..."

Therefore, Ye Hong chose to express the value he possessed in a clever and reasonable way that was not as disgusting as before, and even a little impressive. Two sessions of retreat and practice did gradually change her opinion of him. She felt that this boy could really stand on his own, but his temperament was too stubborn.

Ye Hong looked straight ahead, "Master, in your mind, I was first a lecher, and then your worthless disciple. However, the moment you decided to acknowledge me, you had to acknowledge my improper thoughts about you, and acknowledge that I was first a person who admired you, and then your disciple!"

This means putting on socks first and then shoes, being a grandson first and then a grandfather.

Qingyi's cheeks flushed slightly, she clenched the things in her hands, and her heartbeat was a little abnormal. It was more like excitement than heartbeat.

Ye Hong did not give her a chance to refute, and said directly: "The third right thing I did was to seize the great opportunity to get closer to you. Master's behavior last night was like a different person. Even though you were embarrassed, you did not knock me out or stop me from asking questions. You kept your word and did what you said. This just proves that Master is a good master, and makes me like you more and more."

He smiled softly, "But I'm not a good disciple."

"Since you are a goddess, Master, I will pull you down from the altar and let you fall into the mud with me into the world of mortals."

She pursed her lips tightly, raised her hand and rubbed her eyebrows, a little angry, "You little bastard, if you really get your hands on me, how can I face people in the future?"

Without giving him a good look, she said coldly, "You mentioned the three things you are most proud of. Do you know that the thing I regret most is that I was too soft-hearted towards you. I hesitated when I should have made a decision, and ended up suffering the consequences. For example, I should have castrated you last night. I think you really want to enter the palace to serve the empress!"

Ye Hong shuddered and forced a smile, "No, I was just sure of Master's attitude at the time. You wouldn't have the heart to really chop it down, right?"

Qingyi didn't comment, she sneered and said, "Who knows, you can just take out your thing and try it again now."

She made no secret of these things, for she was fully aware that any discomfort she had would only make him more excited.

She is clearly the victim, so why is she trapped in shame and self-blame?

On the other hand, if he has made all the efforts and she just keeps on acting like "see what else you can do" without any feedback, then he will soon get bored. If she acts even crazier than him, he will even feel distressed and scared, and will beg her to be normal.

This is the most effective way to deal with him.

Upon hearing this, Ye Hong shook his head vigorously. What a joke! He wouldn't have a second chance.

Chapter 119 Be My Mother

Men are always afraid of having their organs cut off, thus losing their male characteristics and identity. However, when Ye Hong entered puberty, he had some unnatural thoughts. He thought that his feelings for his mother were abnormal and wrong. So, for the first time, the idea of ​​"castrating myself" emerged in his young mind. This "castration" is not only physical castration, but actually a psychological deprivation.

To use an analogy, it is like the castration of people's ideals by reality - "Life is a slow process of being hammered. People grow old day by day, and their extravagant hopes disappear day by day. In the end, they become like a hammered cow, only knowing how to eat grass and work, and nothing else. They don't even need to be tied up when they are killed."

Men will inevitably experience Oedipus during their growth process, and during this period, he has the subconscious desire to kill his father and marry his mother.

If this desire cannot be overcome in the end, the personality will be distorted.

The spontaneous prohibition of taboos makes it impossible for him to obtain satisfaction through promiscuity, so he turns to seek interactions with other opposite sexes. This is in itself a process of "being castrated". Successful castration means completely giving up the wishful thinking in his heart.

When animals are castrated, it is under the crotch, but when humans are castrated, it is in their mind.

From a psychological point of view, there are two times in a man's life when he extremely desires to establish an intimate relationship.

The first time is when he establishes a close attachment relationship with his mother when he is a child; the other time is when he begins to fall in love, and he turns his desire from his mother to other women, develops a throbbing love for the opposite sex, and again longs to establish a connection with them, longs for an attachment relationship, gradually completes the mother's "abdication", and finally makes himself a normal man, a castrated adult male in the psychoanalytic sense.

And Qingyi is the latter for Ye Hong.

She also castrated herself. For men, "castration" is "confinement" for women, which means completely abandoning that part and completely blocking the possibility of development.

Because her childhood experiences had taught her that she should solve problems with her own hands, and what the consequences and punishment would be if her mother discovered her scandal, this left a very deep and painful impression in her subconscious mind, and she still has lingering fears, inner confusion, and at a loss as to what to do.

However, there is a saying that goes, everyone can learn a lot from the people around them. For example, Ye Hong learned the method of hard cultivation from the head of the sect, and learned the strategy of self-torture from Xiao Zi. Qingyi also learned from him how to "go crazy", which made her feel much better than before.

She felt that this was exactly what the traitor wanted to see.

All along, his approach was to constantly stimulate her and torture her mentally until her emotions exploded and she could no longer maintain her composure and became angry. Until that night, she poured out the pain that had been suppressed in her heart. Then he took advantage of the situation and used this opportunity to enter her heart and further manipulate her emotions.

He always liked to pretend to be calm and rational when she was angry. This was what he called love, and this was the way he loved a woman, which was to suppress her and possess her by all means.

This was his true intention, she knew it all, and he had indeed succeeded. No one had ever been so close to her.

But in reality, if Ye Hong had not chosen to suppress her boldly, but chose to obey her blindly, then it would be difficult for him to have an equal opportunity to communicate with her, let alone make her fall in love with him.

There is a saying that goes, when dealing with women, you should hold a rose in one hand and a whip in the other. He deeply agrees with this.

Qingyi closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and cursed in her heart, "You bastard, I disciplined you strictly and mercilessly, but in your eyes it turned into disapproval."

Do you know that if you were not my apprentice, I would have killed you thousands of times.

Ye Hong raised his head slightly and suddenly asked, "Master, actually, you had already succumbed in your heart last night, right?"

"At that time, you told me to do whatever you want to do quickly... At that time, if I really rubbed against you like a male dog, would you let me do what I wanted? Would you be willing to castrate me?"

Qingyi bit her lower lip, raised her hand to tidy up her hair, and twisted her body uneasily. She was upset and felt that she was really a slut. According to the situation at the time, if he touched her, as long as it was not too excessive, she would probably not resist and let him succeed.

I always feel that if things continue to develop, he might become more and more outrageous, and in the end, maybe all that's left is for him to have sex with her, because that's her bottom line, and once they have sex, there's no turning back.

Qingyi glared at him fiercely and said angrily, "Of course I am willing to do that. You evil creature used to call me queen, so I will make your wish come true! I will turn you into a little eunuch who will always be obedient to me."

Ye Hong's tone suddenly changed, and he said softly: "Master, don't deceive yourself. You lost because I am more shameless, worse, and more ridiculous than you. Because the sense of boundaries in your heart has long been destroyed by me. Now that I am holding your innocent body, you think it's nothing... Even if you can make all this public and die with me, you can't change back. If you compromise once, there will be a second time, isn't it?"

After listening to this long speech, she felt a strange and unfamiliar feeling suddenly surge in her heart, so she took a deep breath and tried to suppress it.

Then he sneered and retorted: "Don't say such useless words! I know what you want. You want me to be your whore!"

However, Ye Hong's answer was so explicit that she still remembered it many years later, "No, Master, what I really want is for you to be like my mother, pampering me and restraining me, loving me and disciplining me. I respect you as I respect God, and I love you as my wife and mother."

Qingyi was immediately shocked. She pursed her lips, frowned again, and asked, "You, you want me to be your mother? But you..."

She couldn't say the following words: Do you have any thoughts about your own mother?

It's impossible even if you think about it.

At least Qingyi couldn't accept this idea at all. Even if someone hinted at those two words, she would feel very disgusted.

Ye Hong replied softly: "Master, I don't want to hide it from you. I do hope you can play the role of my mother, but I hope you can be my wife even more. I wonder if you are willing?"

She widened her eyes, and suddenly she felt angry. "Do you want to hear what nonsense you said?"

What was this, a marriage proposal? Asking me to be his mother in bed?

Ye Hong smiled and said, "Yes, Master, that's right, that's it, that's the tone, that's the feeling."

Qingyi was stunned, frowning as she looked at him, as if she was thinking about something. In fact, in the past when they were together, she had always imitated her mother Shenhe and taught and treated him as her younger self. Could it be that he actually liked the feeling of having a strict mother?

This bastard, how much does he love his mother?

Chapter 120 Second Base

When she was young, Qingyi once had an idea.

That is, if there are things that you have always wanted to do but have not dared to do, write them down one by one on paper and do them in the future.

If one day I become a mother, and one day my daughter asks for some candied haws, before I scold her for indulging in her appetite, I should first open the yellowed notes and see clearly written on them, "I want to eat candied haws." Then I should feel relieved, buy some for my child, and also treat my childhood self at the same time.

But later, when she grew up, she didn't even want to have children.

At this moment, Qingyi actually revealed a hint of hesitation between her eyebrows, and she examined her own heart for the first time.

There was once a famous theory called the "Iron House". In this red-hot house, who are the people who have never awakened and are not aware of their own pain more miserable? Or are those who have awakened and realized their own pain, endured the torment but forced themselves to make changes, and therefore have a glimmer of hope to destroy the iron house more miserable?

Although she didn't know what the iron house was, she knew that it might be time for her to make a slight change, so she gently pushed open the door.

What exactly was she expecting to see outside? She herself couldn't explain it.

Qingyi wanted to speak several times but swallowed it back in the end, "You...ah."

Unable to utter anything else except sighing, Ye Hong just knelt on the ground very "obediently" and waited for her quietly, waiting for her to finish speaking.

After several attempts, her tone softened a lot, "Can you... practice well, protect the sect, and find a Taoist partner who matches you..."

As she spoke, she reached out and gently touched his head, putting herself in the shoes of a mother, and spoke as gently as if she were talking to her younger self: "It's my fault."

The moment she said it, her heart finally calmed down.

Ye Hong raised his head. This was the first time he saw his master look at her with a helpless look, like a mother looking at a naughty child.

It is precisely because Qingyi has always maintained a tough stance that her softness at this moment, like a clam spitting out meat, seems so touching.

This was a gentle expression for her, and no one except him had ever had the chance to see it.

At that moment, his heart melted and he was involuntarily attracted to her. He straightened his body and gently rubbed her palm. Seeing that his master's attitude had softened and finally seeing a glimmer of hope, Ye Hong immediately made a crazy decision.

Master, do you know how dragons eat?

In fact, the habits of snakes are very similar. They constantly squeeze the muscles of the whole body and shorten their bodies, just like a spring that is compressed and then bounces back suddenly, and then bursts out with strong thrust, catapulting forward.