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Fujii Itsuki explained, "Because the girl knows that she is ordinary and not worthy of the boy, she doesn't want to make the boy feel grateful to her in this way and create emotional constraints. She likes him, but she only hopes that the boy can recover and get the happiness he deserves, so she chose to donate anonymously."
Jiuhuayue: "It sounds like the girl is a good person, selfless and dedicated."
Fujii Itsuki shook his head and continued, "Later, the boy recovered, became a lawyer again, and had a colorful life of his own. What about the girl?"
Jiu Huayue continued: "Is it because of your kindness that you have a second spring in your life?"
"Wrong, that's a fairy tale. Reality is not a fairy tale. The girl encountered an economic crisis and was laid off by the supermarket. She had no savings and could not do anything. She ate the worst food, lived in the worst house, and was always poor.
"When she was forty, the girl became even poorer because her father was old and sick and she had been unmarried for many years, so she sold all the property in her hometown.
"The boy has a wife and a daughter, a successful career and a happy marriage.
"Many years later, on a Christmas Eve, the distraught girl on the street accidentally met the happy boy and his family. The boy hugged his wife and held his child in his arms. They passed by each other in the vast crowd. Until the end, the boy did not recognize the girl.
"The girl felt very regretful. His happiness was in stark contrast to her own poverty and loneliness - why didn't she say that she had helped him?
"In the end, the girl saw the boy she loved had everything, and she died in the ice and snow with her unrequited love for him."
The story ended and Jiuhuayue fell into thought.
Fujii Itsuki took the opportunity to drink a sip of tea and summarized:
“The girl achieved her original wish, but she didn’t understand what her real wish was at the beginning, and this is the problem that led to the tragedy.
"Hoping to achieve happiness for others and hoping that others will thank you after achieving happiness for you may sound similar at first glance, but they are two opposite extremes."
Jiuhuayue: "Then what question do you want to ask me, Mr. Fujii?"
"Jiuka, you said you chose to join the brass band club because you admired me, so what did you actually expect to get?"
"I admire your skills and achievements, Mr. Fujii, and hope to reach your level."
Fujii Itsuki smiled, "And then?"
"Then."
Jiuhuayue was unable to say it. What she wanted at the beginning was to be able to play a duet with Teacher Fujii and to become good friends with him who could communicate with each other through souls.
I want to be good friends with uncle forever.
Fujii Itsuki did not comment on her silence and continued:
"Even if you can't say it out loud, Jiuhua, I know roughly what kind of response you want from me, Jiuhua, right?"
Jiu Huayue looked up, a little bit unbelieving that he had guessed it, "That's right."
"Are you ready to work hard for a year or two but still not get a response or recognition from me?"
"Yes, I will insist."
"Then let's expand the time a little bit. After you graduate, you go to college, you work, and you get married. You have to know that it is not easy to achieve my current skills. If you don't have talent, it will take time. During this period, you will be separated from me and won't get my feedback. If you continue to insist and still have no results, and you don't even know what you have been doing all these years for, will you regret it?"
"I--" Jiuhuayue had no idea how to answer.
“You need to think clearly whether you want to join the wind band for me or for yourself.
"If it's the former, I advise you to give up as soon as possible. If you lose your goals and persistence and don't get good positive feedback, you will only be confused in the end. This will not make you live happily, and you may even end up with regrets. Instead of doing this, it's better to give up at the beginning.
"I'm not in a hurry to hear your answer. You have enough time to think about it. After you have thought clearly about your ideas, come to me. I have to make it clear in advance that my standards are very strict on the road of music. If you really think about the path you want to take and want to join the wind band, I will not be as easy to talk to as usual."
"." Jiuhuayue was silent for a long time, then bowed her head politely to Fujii Itsuki and said, "Thank you for your guidance, Mr. Fujii."
"Yes," Fujii Itsuki agreed and put down the teacup in his hand, "Also, I have something else to tell you, Jiuhua."
"Teacher Fujii, please speak."
"You remember Hiiragi-san from our class, right?"
"Hiragi Rinka?" Jiuhuayue remembered the short-haired girl who always panicked and lowered her head when she saw her.
"Yes, what do you think of her?"
".classmate."
"What's your impression?"
"it's OK."
"How about trying to talk to her?"
"Why?" Jiuhuayue asked back.
"The teacher asked you to help. Hiiragi has a communication disorder and her mother is worried that her condition will get worse. As her classmate, you can keep an eye on her more conveniently."
"I promise."
Fujii Itsuki smiled, "Thank you. Also, Jiuhua-san, please don't be so arrogant and prickly when dealing with your classmates. This is not conducive to the relationship between classmates."
Jiu Huayue replied: "I just don't like the topic they are discussing. If you don't like it, just say you don't like it. If you hate it, just say you hate it."
Fujii Itsuki shook his head, "Isn't this the reason why you can't find friends?"
"It's better not to make friends than to go with the flow and pretend to agree with the crowd. I don't want to be a puppet, manipulated by others or the collective intentions of others. Then, Mr. Fujii, I will go back to the classroom first."
"Well, let's go."
Sitting in the office chair and watching the girl leaving the office, Fujii Itsuki noticed something.
Maybe not, he had a feeling that Jiuhua would understand what he really meant by saying that in the afternoon.
This child has an extraordinary execution ability.
Chapter 51: Jiuhua x Rinhua
Jiuhuayue spent the entire morning thinking about the questions raised by Fujii Itsuki in the morning.
To the extent that I was called out by the teacher several times for daydreaming in class.
But Jiuhuayue doesn't care about these.
After school at noon, I go to the cafeteria to eat on time.
After dinner, the girl was still thinking on the way back to the classroom. But she always lacked an opportunity and a clue.
She never figured it out.
My thoughts were interrupted by a short-haired girl who was standing under a snowy tree, looking up at the huge snowy crown.
When Jiuhuayue saw the two small hairpins on the side of her hair, she remembered that this was Rinka Hiiragi, whom Fujii Itsuki asked her to talk to in the morning.
Rinka Hiiragi looked up at the tree trunk, looking dazed, which was quite cute.
Jiuhuayue walked straight up.
"doing what?"
“Look at the cicadas.”
"Cicada? Where do cicadas come from in winter?"
Hiiragi Rinka slowly stretched out her hand to point, and Jiuhuayue saw that there was indeed a cicada in its larval stage on the big tree with twisted branches.
This cicada is probably dead.
The shell and wings were covered with snowflakes and ice blown by the wind.
"died."
"No," Hiiragi Rinka retorted, "It's still alive, but it's still dormant. It must have failed when migrating to the ground. How pitiful."
so poor?
Will you feel compassion for insects?
She thought she couldn't do that, but she respected the girl who had such a kind heart.
Jiuhuayue glanced at Hiiragi Rinka for a moment longer, said nothing more, and stepped into the large flower bed.
The girl folded her pleated skirt, climbed up the tree nimbly, and took the cicada off for Hiiragi Rinka right in front of her eyes.
"Kuaka-san——!"
A minute later, Jiuhuayue climbed down from the tree neatly and handed the young cicada covered with snowflakes into her hands:
"take it."
"Jiu-Jiuhua-san."
Rinka Hiiragi's eyes lit up and she thought Jiuhuayue in front of her was so handsome.
"You're welcome. I'm more concerned about how you deal with it."
"Ah! Just bury it!"
Hiiragi Rinka reacted and picked up a branch from the flower bed. Then she dug a hole in the soil under the tree roots and gently placed the dormant cicada in it.
As she covered the cicadas with soft soil, she said, "Young cicadas are born on tree branches, but will move to the ground near the roots within a certain period of time. If they enter the soil, it is considered a success. They will lie dormant in the soil for three to five years, and then break out of the soil in the summer. They call their mates with chirping, mate, lay eggs, and end their lives in just a few weeks."
Jiuhuayue heard a certain philosophy, "Lying dormant for three to five years just for the few weeks after breaking through the ground, do you think it's worth it, Hiiragi-san?"
"worth!"
"why."
"Because when you accomplish something, you often experience more of the process. Just like those actors who have practiced for many, many years, working hard for years or even decades, just to shine in an instant, I think this is their meaning.
"Ah! It's the same when we play games. Game makers always set up obstacles to prevent players from getting rewards. The process of overcoming difficulties and the instant satisfaction of getting rewards are the meaning of playing games. So, it's worth it."
As Rinka Hiiragi spoke, her voice became increasingly softer. When she saw Jiuhuayue frowning, she thought she was angry and quickly apologized.
".S-Sorry. These are just my personal thoughts! I don't mean to lecture Jiuhua-san."
Jiu Huayue figured out something and raised her eyebrows:
"No, I think what you said makes a lot of sense, Hiiragi-san."
"what?"
"Hiiragi-san's words make sense. I fully agree with the conclusion you just made."
"Thank you, thank you."
Hiiragi Rinka was a little scared, but still took out a hard candy and tried to give it to her.