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Gu Panyan was not polite and picked up the chopsticks to taste each one.
"Is it still to your liking?" Chen Yanxi took off her apron and asked.
"It's quite delicious." Gu Panyan said.
This is not a compliment, it is really delicious, it smells good and tastes good when you eat it.
"As long as it tastes good to you."
Chen Yanxi said something and went to pour cat food for Xiao Ge.
When Xiaoge also started to enjoy the food, she washed her hands and sat across from Gu Panyan.
"Tell me, why did you call me here?"
Gu Panyan didn't seem to regard him as a guest at all, and asked while eating.
The smart girl in front of me definitely guessed who she was without even thinking about it.
"Actually, it's nothing."
Chen Yanxi shook his head, "I just want to treat you to a meal."
"Just have a meal?"
"Ah."
Chen Yanxi explained: "My financial situation is not very good. It would be beyond my affordability to treat you to a meal outside. Going to a cheap restaurant would seem like I am not sincere, so I will simply bring you back and I'll do it myself." The chef will cook something for you."
Gu Panyan frowned slightly.
She really didn't expect that Chen Yanxi's conditions would be so bad.
Does that scumbag Wang Ge not care at all?
Gu Panyan asked casually again: "Why do you have to invite me to dinner?"
Chen Yanxi thought for a while and said, "Because you invited my cat to eat a piece of ham."
Gu Panyan: "..."
Just for a piece of ham?
"Well, you can also understand this as, courtesy first and then fighting."
Hearing this, Gu Panyan raised his head, narrowed his peach blossom eyes, and stared at the girl sitting opposite.
But Chen Yanxi didn't seem to realize how offensive he had said. His expression did not change and his eyes remained calm.
"Ah."
Gu Panyan casually picked up a chopstick of food and put it into his mouth. The corners of his mouth turned up, "It's interesting."
"You have found me here, I have to fight back appropriately." Chen Yanxi said
Gu Panyan ate alone without saying a word.
She was indeed a little hungry.
Chen Yanxi looked at her and said softly, "Actually, I never like to compete with others for something."
"Ok?"
Gu Panyan paused while eating, and a sarcastic smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, "Are you going to say next that the things that truly belong to you will belong to you without grabbing them?"
"No."
Chen Yanxi shook his head, "It's because I care about very few things. Even if they are all taken away, it won't affect me at all."
"and then?"
Gu Panyan narrowed her peach blossom eyes and stared at her, as if she wanted to see what was going on in this girl's mind.
PS: I don’t have any drafts saved, so what I posted today are all coded right now. Please forgive me. I’ll see if I can write another chapter tonight. Then tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, including the May Day holiday, I will try to update more to make up for the overdue updates for everyone!
I remember that my boss had rewarded a helmsman before, and now he has supported another leader. Thanks to my boss for his continued support, I cried to death.
I wish my boss a happy day and a long life!
Chapter 100 The collision of freedom and courage
"I don't like fighting, and I won't fight with you." Chen Yanxi shook his head and said, "Because such fighting is meaningless."
"So, what you're saying is that the things you care about don't include Wang Ge, right?"
Gu Panyan glanced at her playfully, and then at the little civet cat named Xiaoge who was working hard. The meaning was self-evident.
Even your cat is named after him. If you say you don't care, no one will believe it.
"First of all, Wang Ge is a living, thoughtful person, not something that can be fought over or something."
Chen Yanxi said to her seriously: "His behavior is completely controlled by his free will, not by the competition between you and me."
Gu Panyan frowned slightly.
Chen Yanxi looked at her and continued: "Secondly, this is the first time I like someone in my life, so of course I care about him."
"But what I care about is him as a person, not my relationship with him."
"Emotions are not necessary for me. They are things that can be discarded at any time. If he wants to live a good life with you and thus sever contact with me, this is completely acceptable to me."
"I don't want to have close relationships with others. Being alone for the rest of my life is also a very ideal living situation."
Gu Panyan still frowned: "Don't you want to be with him?"
"Of course I do. After all, I like him."
Chen Yanxi looked at her and said softly, "But, compared to this, I hope that he can freely choose to live the life he wants."
"Huh?" Gu Panyan was a little confused.
"This may sound hypocritical on my part, but I still want to tell you."
"Everyone expresses their concern for others in different ways." She said seriously, "Because of my personal reasons, my concern for Wang Ge does not mean that I must possess him, but that I will respect and Support every choice he makes based on his free will - even if that choice is away from me."
Just like he respected and supported the choices I made before. Chen Yanxi added in his heart.
Gu Panyan stared at her and frowned slightly.
Because of her previous special experiences, she has the ability to easily see through other people's inner thoughts.
Therefore, she could deeply feel that every word of the girl in front of her came from her heart, and not a single word was a lie.
She finally understood why Wang Ge was so obsessed with this girl.
Such a strong personal charm can overwhelm people like a tide. If she were a man, she would also be fascinated by him.
However, understanding leads to understanding, and obsession leads to obsession. Gu Panyan does not agree with her approach.
There is a lot of suffering in the world, but happiness and beauty are too rare.
Suffering requires courage to overcome, and the rare happiness and beauty require courage to fight for and boldly hold it tightly in your hands.
Once you miss it, you may never have it again.
Why do happiness and beauty also require courage? This is because in Gu Panyan's understanding, the unhappiness experienced by most people is often due to lack of courage and the lack of courage to achieve happiness.
The simplest example is that you like a good-looking and outstanding person of the opposite sex, but you dare not pursue or confess your love. You feel that you are not good-looking, have a bad figure, have no money, or have a bad family, so you have low self-esteem. , I feel that the other person may look down on you, so I don’t dare to confess.
But ultimately, what you are afraid of is not that the other person will look down upon you. What you are afraid of is that you will be rejected, that you will be laughed at by others, that you will be treated like a dog licker and have nothing, that you will get nothing in return for your efforts. He becomes a clown in the eyes of others.
This fear is a sign of lack of courage.
If you don’t have the courage and don’t even dare to try, how can you know whether you can succeed in the end?
Therefore, in Gu Panyan's view, Chen Yanxi's idea was a sign of lack of courage and daring not to try.
Lack of courage to achieve happiness even against free will.
Of course, Gu Panyan would not argue with Chen Yanxi. Arguing was not her character, and it would have no effect.
She feels that Chen Yanxi has no courage, and Chen Yanxi may feel that she does not respect personal free will. Both of them have a set of mature views and concepts. Gu Panyan's views are more realistic, and Chen Yanxi's ideas are more ideal. They are both convinced. No one.
And Chen Yanxi would most likely not argue with her.
So Gu Panyan just applauded Chen Yanxi gently: "It's really wonderful. Should I praise your noble sentiments and praise your great character?"
"Everyone has a different opinion on this kind of thing. There is no distinction between high and low, noble and vulgar."
Chen Yanxi lowered his head to eat, "I'm just explaining my thoughts to you. This is also part of the 'etiquette'."
Gu Panyan raised his eyebrows: "So, what about the 'soldier' part?"
"That's in the future, I can't say for sure." Chen Yanxi shook his head, "Maybe there will be, or maybe there won't be."
She needs to reshape herself. Once she has reshaped herself, her inherent ideas are broken, and if she thinks about the problem from a different angle, she may make completely different choices.
Gu Panyan stared at her and suddenly laughed: "I suddenly remembered something very interesting."
"Let's talk while we eat." Chen Yanxi said, "The food is getting cold."
"Row."
Gu Panyan picked up the chopsticks and said while eating, "You said you respect and support his choice and want him to live the life he wants, right?"
"Ah."
"Then what if the life that scumbag wants is to have two boats?"
Gu Panyan looked at her with playful eyes, "What if he wants us to be his girlfriends together? Will you still support him?"
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Chen Yanxi replied without any hesitation, "I respect his choice and support him in working hard for the goal he wants to achieve."
"But that doesn't mean I have to agree to him. Relationships are between two people. While I support his choice, I must also respect my own will."
She said calmly: "Whatever choice you make, you must bear what responsibility. If his goal conflicts with my will, then it is his responsibility to resolve the conflict and he has to make the decision." s hard work."
"Tsk, a genius is a genius, what he says is different."
The corner of Gu Panyan's mouth curled up in a mocking arc, "So, Miss Genius, tell me, if that scumbag really wants to ride two boats, can you accept it?"
This time, Chen Yanxi hesitated for a few seconds before shaking his head: "I don't know."
"Don't know?" Gu Panyan was a little surprised.