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"High-sounding." Gu Panyan commented coldly.
"Actually, it means the same thing as what I said before." Chen Yanxi shook his head and said, "I like him, so I respect and support his choice. If he doesn't give up on me, I won't give up on him."
Gu Panyan let out a 'hehe' and asked mockingly: "Then do you know that Wang Ge belongs to me now?"
The hidden meaning in this sentence is: Are you going to be a third party that interferes with other people's feelings?
"But I don't want to interfere with your relationship." Chen Yanxi looked confused, "Now I just want you to go back and be with Wang Ge and not disturb my life. Isn't this okay?"
"What about you in the future?"
"In the future, the only thing I can be sure of is that I will respect his choice. I have told you completely."
Chen Yanxi shook his head and said, "As for the others, I can't be sure at all."
Gu Panyan stared at her, feeling as if he had punched cotton.
Chen Yanxi is too candid.
She was so frank that she couldn't even get angry.
…Sure enough, we still have to break that damn scumbag’s legs.
"I see."
Gu Panyan put down his chopsticks and said, "Thank you for your hospitality, I'm leaving."
"it is good."
Chen Yanxi nodded slightly, "I'll see you off."
Chen Yanxi sent her downstairs. Gu Panyan took two steps and suddenly turned around and asked, "How did you recognize me in the first place? You shouldn't have seen me, right?"
If Chen Yanxi recognized her from the beginning, there would be no need to ask if she was the bodyguard hired by Wang Ge.
Chen Yanxi replied: "Because, the people Wang Ge invited to protect me will say that Wang Ge's brother invited them here, and I have asked them all to go back."
"so."
Gu Panyan nodded thoughtfully and was about to turn around and leave when he heard Chen Yanxi say: "There is no need for me to affect your relationship with Wang Ge. After I left, he never came to see me once."
"Don't worry, my relationship with him is fine."
Gu Panyan said casually and waved his hand, "Goodbye, Chen Yanxi."
"Goodbye."
Chen Yanxi stood at the gate of the community and watched her leave.
……
"Are poems and distant places that important to you?"
"Yes, yes."
"What about when you enter society and join the workforce in the future?"
Wang Ge and Li Zhimeng were walking in the alley and asked casually, "When the time comes, how will you find your poems and the distance if you don't have time?"
"Oh, let's talk about the future in the future."
Li Zhimeng waved his hands indifferently, "Stop talking about me, talk about you, brother."
"Me? What do I have to say."
"Well, for example..." Li Zhimeng looked at him, his eyes twinkling, "Do you really like those children, brother?"
Wang Ge frowned slightly, "Why do you ask?"
"Actually, I don't know if it's an illusion." Li Zhimeng scratched his hair, "I just feel that when you are playing with the children, you smile very happily, but there is no fluctuation in your eyes. Sometimes when you are happy, Sometimes I’m not happy and it seems a bit unreal.”
"illusory?"
"Yes, yes." Li Zhimeng nodded and pointed to his eyes, "Do you still remember, brother, I told you a long time ago that if a person has any fluctuations in his heart, he will definitely be there. It shows in the eyes.”
"You want to say I'm fake smiling?"
Wang Ge was slightly surprised.
I had been pretending for more than ten years, but this teenage girl actually saw the clues?
"It's not a fake smile." Li Zhimeng waved his hand, "If you fake a smile, your face is smiling, but there is no smile in your eyes."
"But brother, you are different. Half of your eyes are smiling, and the other half are indifferent."
"Oh, this description may be a bit inappropriate, but I don't know how to describe it to you."
Li Zhi dreamed for a moment, "That's right, looking into your eyes, I feel as if there are two of you. One of you is happily playing games with the children, and the other of you is watching indifferently."
Seeing that Wang Ge didn't speak, she asked tentatively: "Brother, do you really like those children?"
"Do you really... feel happy?"
The expression on Wang Ge's face was a little stiff.
He was silent and didn't speak.
"It's okay, it's okay if you don't want to talk about it." Li Zhimeng comforted, "Everyone may have some unspeakable past, it's okay, brother."
Wang Ge raised his head and stared at the dim light of the setting sun in the distance.
After a moment of silence, he said in confusion: "I don't know."
"Don't know?" Li Zhimeng was confused.
Wang Ge said "Yeah", feeling inexplicably melancholy.
"Actually, I think you may be really happy, brother." Li Zhimeng scratched his hair, "After all, if you weren't really happy, how could you have been playing with the children in the yard for so long."
"But your state is very worrying, like a schizophrenia."
Li Zhimeng looked at Wang Ge and asked cautiously: "How about going to see a psychiatrist, brother?"
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Chapter 103 Big Sister Killer
"Psychologist?"
Wang Ge shook his head, "No, it's not a big problem."
He actually knows his own situation very well.
Seeking a psychiatrist is of no use.
He was born with memories of his previous life, rich experiences and a complete outlook on things.
But these cannot be seen, so he has put on a thick disguise since he was born.
To pretend to be a baby, to be held every day, to be fed by others for three meals a day, to sleep or to be in a daze when bored, and even to eliminate excretion by oneself.
This is definitely an unacceptable thing for an adult with a mature mentality, dignity and shame.
So he felt tortured and in great pain.
As a baby, he received a lot of attention. He had to be tense all the time. Most of the time every day except sleeping, he would cry loudly.
Only in the dead of night could he look at the darkness outside the window and be himself for a short while.
At that time, as a newborn baby, what he thought most was: It would be better to just die.
Since you want me to time travel, why do I have to start from the beginning? Can’t I just travel directly to high school or college?
Do you want to find a way to commit suicide? At least you won't suffer so much.
But his body is not developed, and even if he has suicidal thoughts, he does not have the ability to commit suicide.
Banging your head against the wall? Let’s not talk about whether he has a chance to hit. Even if there is a chance, his body has no strength at all, his bones have not developed, and he can’t even stand up. How can he hit?
Bite your tongue and kill yourself? He doesn't even have teeth, so does he have to bite his tongue with his gums?
There was a chance of slitting his wrists, but there was no way his parents would let him have access to a knife.
Human cubs are such weak and powerless creatures.
All he could do was accept the reality and pretend to be a baby numbly.
Over time, he actually had some psychological problems.
Fortunately, as time passed, his body gradually became stronger and he was finally able to take care of himself.
I gradually got used to the disguise, and it gradually got better.
But because he was still under the nose of his parents, he couldn't take off his disguise to save himself, so he could only try not to let his psychological problems expand.
After entering kindergarten, he left his parents and received less attention. He finally had the opportunity to take off his disguise for a short time and silently huddled in a corner to lick his wounds.
But this was regarded as withdrawn, which worried his parents for a while and even called him a psychiatrist.
Helpless, he had no choice but to put on his disguise again, show his innocent smile, and go play with the children of the same age.
This was also an extremely painful thing for him at the time.
Although it was much easier than when I was a baby, the psychological problems gradually expanded.
He began to become irritable and irritable. He would lose his temper without realizing it and could not control it at all.
Looking at the children playing around him, he would want to take something and hit them on the head. It must be very interesting to see their bloody heads.
When I am alone, I become withdrawn, taciturn, my mind is empty, my heart is full of exhaustion, and I have no ideas.
Lying on the bed and looking at the ceiling, I thought it would be great if the ceiling could fall down and kill me...
However, Wang Ge is not someone who will sit still and wait for death after all.
He knew very well that if he continued like this, he would suffer from some kind of mental illness.
He didn't want to end up in a mental hospital.
So he started trying to save himself.
Originally, the best way to save yourself is undoubtedly to get rid of the disguise and be your true self.
But when he wanted to do this, he sadly discovered that this disguise could no longer be removed.
Because you have been pretending for so long, you have already formed a habit, even an instinct, and it is difficult to peel it off.