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Matsumae Shinchun lowered her head and looked at her hands which were clasped in front of her, feeling a little uneasy.
She didn't quite understand what this anxiety that was emerging in her hands was.
"Matsumae, are you still feeling a little uncomfortable?"
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Fujii Itsuki stopped, and Matsumae Shinharu followed suit.
The girl's pleated skirt swayed gently, and she looked up at the teacher.
"Matsumae?"
"Yes, teacher." The girl agreed softly.
Fujii Itsuki smiled, his eyes behind his half-frame glasses revealing the maturity and gentleness that only an adult man can have:
"Don't worry about bothering me. On the contrary, if Matsumae is upset but keeps it to himself, it will make the teacher feel uneasy."
Matsumae Xinchun's eyes trembled, and she was a little afraid to look at him. She just lowered her head to avoid his gaze and nodded slightly, "Yeah, I still feel a little uncomfortable."
"Did you bring your medicine?"
"In the classroom."
"In the classroom. It's a bit far to walk back now. I remember there are alprazolam tablets in the school clinic. I'll go get some for you."
".Teacher Fujii knows what medicine I'm taking?"
"As the person in charge, I naturally need to understand." Seeing that she was uneasy, Fujii Itsuki added, "Besides, you, Matsumae, are also a friend to me, and a 'confidant' with the same interests as me. Isn't that right?"
Matsumae Shinchun murmured the word "confidant" in her heart.
She knew that the teacher said this to her because of her mother and her mother's novels.
She whispered with a heavy heart:
"Well, every time I talk to the teacher about my mother's novels, I feel very happy."
Fujii Itsuki saw that she was in a bad mood and seemed to have some misunderstanding, so he asked:
"Are you worried about something? Why not just say it."
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"Matsumae," Fujii Itsuki reminded, "Do you remember what we said when you ran away when you saw me that day?"
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Matsumae Shinharu recalled with shame, "I said that the teacher was a trustworthy person."
"Yes, I trust Songqian, and Songqian also trusts me. Not only is the relationship between teacher and student, but we are also friends who have known each other for many days. Shouldn't we trust each other and talk about problems when there are any?"
Matsumae Shinharu felt even more ashamed, because just now Teacher Fujii came over to help her out, and she was very grateful to the teacher.
How could you misunderstand the teacher just because of the word "of course"?
Matsumae Shinchun remained silent for a long time, but finally mustered up the courage to speak out her innermost thoughts:
"Teacher Fujii, I just want to know, when the teacher said I was a 'confidant', was it because of my mother or because of me?"
It turned out to be the case.
Fujii Itsuki wondered what the girl's troubles were.
He studied psychology in college because of the demands of his teaching career, and he knew that Matsumae had a deviation in his self-perception.
The most striking feature of self-perception is uncertainty about one's own status.
This is quite obvious.
Sure enough, being honest with each other is the best way to solve the problem.
He liked the little snow fox a little more because of the girl's bold honesty and seriousness.
"Matsumae, doesn't your father care about you too?"
Matsumae Shinchun lowered her head even deeper, "I haven't seen my father for more than two months."
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Fujii Itsuki sighed in his heart.
"Matsumae wants to hear the truth from me?"
"Ah."
"I know you have some doubts that I treat you so well because of your mother, but actually now, I care more about you, Matsumae."
"Why did the teacher say that?" The girl looked up in surprise.
"Because I have been communicating with you all this time, right? Whether it's my mother or the novel, they are the bridge between us, not the object. Obviously, I am very happy to chat with you because I can find a sense of identity and the joy of sharing in you."
"What does it feel like?" the girl asked.
Fujii Itsuki knew that she needed to be cared for, and continued to affirm her emotions, "It makes me very happy to get your reply. I like every reply you give me as a close friend."
"Teacher Fujii" Matsumae Shinharu is shy.
Fujii Itsuki was afraid that she might misunderstand him, so he added, "Of course, it's the love for a good friend."
"Yeah." Matsumae Shinchun nodded quickly, but still blushed a little, "I understand."
When Matsumae Shinchun lowered her head, she suddenly saw the little snow fox amulet that she had given to Fujii Shu still hanging on the keychain around his waist.
Teacher, is he still wearing it?
"In fact, I am looking forward to you taking the initiative to chat with me on Line, because every time you can share something that I am interested in. It feels very good to speak the truth without being a teacher. If you say it this way, do you understand my true opinion of you?"
So this is what Mr. Fujii thought.
It's comfortable to talk to myself. So compared to your mother, Mr. Fujii actually cares more about yourself now?
Matsumae Shinchun felt much more at ease.
"I understand. Thank you, Mr. Fujii."
"Then please answer this yourself. Besides the teacher-student and friend relationship, what is the deeper level of our relationship now?"
Matsumae Shinchun met his gaze, hesitated for a moment, and suddenly said, "He is a confidant, a friend!"
Fujii Itsuki smiled: "Yes, Matsumae is very important to me. He is not only a friend, but also a confidant. Let me ask you again, do you understand Matsumae?"
"Yeah, I got it."
Mr. Fujii
The girl looked at his face and repeated the name in her heart.
Matsumae Shinchun seemed to understand.
I understand why Xiaoyue works so hard.
Why did she try so hard to become the teacher's 'student'.
Xiaoyue must be chasing this kind of feeling, right?
Be recognized and acknowledged by the teacher.
It was at this moment that Matsumae Shinharu realized the value of herself by her teacher's side.
Matsumae Shinchun couldn't help but think of her own situation.
The Matsumae family is a very large family, and the father often does not come home because he works outside.
As the eldest daughter of the Matsumae family and a shrine maiden of the Matsumae Shrine, she can only wander around the empty Matsumae courtyard forever.
She rarely gets close to others on a daily basis, and because of the death of her mother and her best friend, she has always felt a lack of existence.
For many years, I have been feeling anxious.
Until——the teacher appeared.
The teacher brought news about my mother, and through the teacher I found someone who also loved my mother's novels.
I can find some of my mother's past shadow in him, and I can also feel some care that only elders can have.
The teacher is like both my mother and my father.
The loneliness that had been vacant in my heart for many years was filled because of the teacher's words of affirmation.
"I really hope to get praise from Mr. Fujii."
Mr. Fujii
Mr. Fujii
Mr. Fujii
Just by repeating my respect for him in my heart, the anxiety that is so painful that it makes me feel better can be relieved.
Being praised, being patted on the head, and even being given a warm hug.
Matsumae Shinchun felt that she shouldn't think about it any further. She more or less felt that she lacked some love and care from her elders.
But I'm still a little unsure about what kind of feelings I have towards Mr. Fujii.
Seeing that Matsumae Shinharu had calmed down, Fujii Itsuki also breathed a sigh of relief.
The students he came into contact with seemed to have certain psychological problems.
Kuka is, Rinka is, and Chitose is even more so.
"Matsumae, go to the office and wait for me. I'll come find you after I get the medicine."
"Good teacher."
Matsumae Shinharu looked at Fujii Itsuki's back as it disappeared at the end of the corridor, and she suddenly felt a little reluctant.
It was completely different from when I first met Mr. Fujii.
What kind of mood is this?
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Half an hour ago.
The screen in Class B's classroom was playing a movie chosen by the students themselves, and everyone was watching it attentively.