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If I have free time, no one should try to control me. I want to have a life that belongs to me.]
After reading the composition, Fujii Itsuki began tapping his chin with his pen.
“Do you want to have your own life?”
Fujii Itsuki gave the composition a score and began to ponder the relationship between Xiao Jiuhua and her mother.
The word "freedom" permeates the entire text.
This shows that freedom is a luxury for Jiuhua.
Jiuhuayue's rebellion against her parents stems from their control over her.
Come to think of it, Jiuhua has been training in Takarazuka since she was a child, how could she not be under control?
etc.
Fujii Itsuki's eyes lit up, as if he had discovered the reason why the relationship between them had deteriorated.
He couldn't help but smile bitterly.
Jiuhua seemed to have misunderstood herself.
She thought she was going to "control her" and make her go back to Tokyo as soon as possible.
In fact, what I said that day was really just a "suggestion" from a member of society.
The difference between the two is that one is kind-hearted and will not ask Jiuhua to obey, while the other is extremely purposeful and does not give Jiuhua the right to choose.
Fujii Itsuki had no intention of controlling her at all.
He raised his head and looked at the ceiling, and suddenly remembered how Xiao Jiuhua secretly pinched his hand and then leaned her head on his shoulder on the day of the rainstorm.
Is that trust in yourself?
No wonder after persuading Jiuhua to return to Tokyo, she went upstairs crying.
To her, he was now someone she trusted.
He is also the only friend who understands and supports her.
Even if it was out of kindness, she didn't need my advice at all.
This way I couldn't understand her.
Thinking of this, Fujii Itsuki shook his head and continued to correct homework.
Fujii Itsuki corrected the homework one after another out of habit. He yawned, squinted his eyes, and felt sleepy. He wanted to take a short nap, but he fell asleep until four in the morning.
"Ha~~"
Fujii Itsuki yawned, his waist ached, and he wanted to go back to bed. But when he stood up, a piece of clothing suddenly slipped off his shoulders.
He looked back at the coat that had fallen on the chair.
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Fujii Itsuki didn't remember putting on his coat.
There was no thief to help me put on the cap in the middle of the night, which means it is indeed Jiuhua, right?
Fujii Itsuki found it funny when he thought of this girl quietly walking up behind him, looking at his back and getting angry, but also worried that he would catch a cold, so she finally chose to put clothes on him.
He picked up the coat and put it back on his shoulders.
It was unexpectedly quite warm.
*
The next morning, Saturday.
Jiuhuayue rolled around on the bed. She really wanted to talk to herself.
She couldn't sleep the whole night because when she got up in the middle of the night, she saw a light in the uncle's room and couldn't help but go to his room to take a look.
The uncle fell asleep on his desk, exhausted from grading homework.
In fact, ever since the uncle went back to work, she often saw the light in his room on in the middle of the night.
She didn't know how heavy a teacher's job was, but every time she glanced at the several cigarette filters in the ashtray on his desk, she felt heavy-hearted.
The uncle rarely smokes recently.
He only smokes one or two when he's stressed out at home and needs a boost for work.
For most people, cigarettes are most likely smoked for fun.
Jiu Huayue only saw the pressure the uncle felt as an adult in his cigarette.
Come to think of it, uncle, you have relied on yourself to get to where you are now, right?
He came from an orphanage, was admitted to Kyoto University on his own, and obtained his high school teacher's certificate on his own.
Jiuhuayue was not quite aware of the difficulties involved, but he was vaguely aware that he had spent countless days and nights of hard work to get to this point.
Jiuhuayue held the little shark music box that Fujii Itsuki gave her last New Year, and thought to herself: Could it be that the uncle really feels that the social pressure in the future will be too great, so he said those words to me?
Just like he deliberately said that his strawberry scrambled eggs were delicious.
He actually does this to care about himself and be considerate of himself.
My mother likes to use a set of excuses to persuade me, saying things like - "I am concerned about you", "Listen to mom, this is for your own good".
Actually?
Jiuhuayue knows it clearly.
My parents just want me to gain a firm foothold in Takarazuka.
They say these things without caring about themselves at all.
That's why my father chose to scold me when I touched their interests - when I had to live in Otaru forever.
Really
Hate this feeling.
The feeling of being kidnapped by parents.
But uncle, this wasn't the purpose that day, right?
The uncle was advising himself as an elder. He was telling himself how to go forward and how to make life easier.
This is a sign of caring about yourself, which is completely different from caring about your parents.
She probably knew that she had misunderstood the uncle.
The uncle is concerned about himself.
It's like deliberately saying that my strawberry scrambled eggs are delicious.
Really, I hate it!
Hate it, hate it so much!
Why are you pretending to be happy after eating it?
Do you think I will be happy?
——Although I’m really happy.
For the first time, Jiuhuayue found the joy of cooking from the uncle.
At that time, I watched him eat the food he cooked. He was so happy.
He gave himself a meaning.
Thinking of this, Jiu Huayue suddenly felt that the little shark on the music box in her hand was even more cuter.
She turned around and buried her face in the quilt again.
The words "uncle, uncle, uncle, uncle" kept repeating in the girl's head.
Then she turned around and wound up the little shark music box.
She began to think about how to ease the awkward atmosphere between them.
After all, we just had a fight.
"Forgive uncle, don't forgive uncle, forgive uncle, don't forgive uncle."
——Until the music box ran out of steam, Jiuhuayue kept whispering to Little Shark.
With a click, the spring finished running.
The voice fell at the end of "Uncle I Don't Forgive".
"what"
Jiuhuayue pouted her face in frustration and put down the music box.
I have given him so many cold and ugly faces over the past few days. Is it really possible for me to have a normal conversation with him again?
The uncle insisted on talking to me for several days, but he didn't do that yesterday. Does he not care about me at all now?
Did he give up on himself?
Must not
Not at all
Jiu Huayue felt extremely reluctant when she thought about actually losing her uncle as a friend.
He. He played the guitar for me, gave me gifts, took care of me that day, and made lean meat porridge for me. I remember it all!
He also instructed himself to practice the trumpet.
The most important thing is that he is willing to watch shark movies with me!
Even though they are just trivial things.
But I've never found such a person.
"No, I need to talk to the uncle and have a clear discussion!"
Jiuhuayue stood up and put the little shark music box away.
At this point, if the uncle is not catching up on sleep, he should be making breakfast.