Chapter 162 I would rather be broken than jade
Drizzle, misty.
Shen Jingxuan took Ling Huan out of the house in the rain and took a carriage to the Queen's palace.
She thought the Queen would deliberately make things difficult for her like she did last time, but unexpectedly, the Queen changed her usual behavior and let her come directly to the palace.
Shen Jingxuan hurriedly bowed to the queen: "Your servant greets Her Majesty the Queen."
Hearing the voice, the queen looked at Shen Jingxuan and said, "Stand up, no need to be polite."
Shen Jingxuan couldn't help but complain in her heart. When she entered the palace without any formalities, the Queen pretended not to know?
There's no need to be so polite. Why didn't you tell her earlier? Why did you have to wait until she had finished her formalities before telling her?
Shen Jingxuan stood there quietly without saying a word. She didn't know what the Queen was thinking, and waited for her to speak.
The queen seemed unaware and continued to sip the tea in her hand.
The palace was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop.
After a long while, the queen looked at Shen Jingxuan again and said, "Come forward and feel my pulse. I feel a little unwell."
Just as Shen Jingxuan thought, the Queen did not make things difficult for her, but when she asked her to take her pulse, Shen Jingxuan still felt that there was something wrong.
Shen Jingxuan didn't think much about it, nor did she refuse, and stepped forward to take the queen's pulse.
After taking the pulse, Shen Jingxuan stepped back a few steps and said, "Empress, you are angry and worried. You should relax about everything. It will be good for your health."
It was raining outside. The Queen's illness was not difficult to cure. She could just summon an imperial physician. Why should she come in the rain?
The Queen sighed and said, "I want to feel relieved, but how can I feel relieved when everything is not going as I wish?"
Thinking of what Xie Zihan had done, the queen became extremely angry and started coughing violently. In the blink of an eye, her face turned red and her breathing became unstable.
"Your Majesty, you should take care of your health." Shen Jingxuan consoled.
Given the Queen's personality, no matter how big the problem is, she will not take it to heart and can solve it easily.
I'm afraid it's only Xie Zihan's problem that she wants to solve but is powerless to do anything about.
The queen looked at Shen Jingxuan as if she was looking at another person: "Shen Jingxuan, if the prince didn't like your sister and wanted to marry you, would you marry him?"
"Your Majesty, that's all in the past." Shen Jingxuan said perfunctorily.
She didn't want to marry someone like Xie Zihan, even if he had wanted to marry her.
The Queen sighed and said, "Yes, it was in the past. Unfortunately, he already had someone he loved at that time. It's a pity that they met too late."
Shen Jingxuan didn't understand what the Queen meant, but she could tell that she must have someone she liked. But when they met, the person she liked already had someone he liked?
But these are the Queen's private affairs, why should we tell her about them?
The queen continued, "How is your mother now? Your father is dead, is she okay?"
Shen Jingxuan frowned and looked at the queen in confusion: "Mother is fine."
Why today, she always felt that the queen was weird and everything she said made her confused.
The Queen scoffed, "Really? It seems she isn't very affectionate. Your father has only been gone for a few years."
"I first met your father, but I didn't expect that he was just out on business, and brought your mother back, and promised to spend the rest of his life with her."
"For her, your father didn't even bother to take in a concubine. After his death, your mother is living a good life. It's really ridiculous."
The Queen spoke to herself as if on a soliloquy, and Shen Jingxuan listened quietly. After all, what the Queen said was something she had never heard of before.
Shen Jingxuan listened carefully, but the queen changed the topic: "Shen Jingxuan, what do you think a person who cannot get the love he wants will do?"
"Will you give them your sincere blessing, or will you make them suffer and regret for the rest of their lives?"
After she finished speaking, the queen seemed to be crazy: "If it were me, I would make him die a miserable death, make them suffer for the rest of their lives, and separate them forever, never to see each other again."
Shen Jingxuan looked at the queen in shock. She didn't expect that the queen would say such a thing.
The queen was so cruel that she would not let go of the man she loved, just because he did not love her.
Shen Jingxuan probed: "If it were me, I would sincerely bless him. Since he is the one I love in my heart, how could I bear to do anything to hurt him."
Shen Jingxuan wanted to know the Queen's intention and why she talked about such things with her.
The queen glared at Shen Jingxuan angrily: "Bless him? Let him love other women and have children? Let me suffer the pain of lovesickness alone? Absolutely impossible."
Noticing the Queen's abnormality, Shen Jingxuan said, "Queen, what happened to the man you loved?"
Instead of beating around the bush, Shen Jingxuan would rather ask directly and see if the queen is willing to speak.
"Him? He died on the battlefield and will never come back." After the queen said this, she became emotional.
The Queen's words echoed in Shen Jingxuan's mind for a long time. The man she loved died on the battlefield?
Her father also died on the battlefield, but was killed by a villain.
Thinking of what the Queen had just asked about her mother, and the meaning of what the Queen had just said, Shen Jingxuan's eyes suddenly widened.
She pretended to be calm and looked at the queen: "You like my father?"
The queen looked at Shen Jingxuan who was coughing violently, tears streaming down her face, but she still couldn't stop.
She stared at Shen Jingxuan, her eyes red, as if she was looking through her at another person.
Shen Jingxuan wanted to hear her answer, but the violent coughing prevented the queen from speaking for a while.
When the maid heard the queen's voice, she stepped forward and gently stroked her back, but the pain did not subside.
Shen Jingxuan asked her maid to fetch silver needles and gave acupuncture to the queen herself.
After the acupuncture treatment was finished, the queen finally stopped coughing, but she had already regained her composure.
Shen Jingxuan asked: "Does the Queen like my father?"
She stared at the queen nervously, waiting for her answer expectantly.
The queen smiled faintly and asked, "Why do you say that?"
Thinking of what she had just said, the queen felt a little regretful. She shouldn't have talked about the past, nor should she have said so much.
Shen Jingxuan was extremely disappointed. She didn't get the answer she wanted and couldn't help feeling a little lost.
"It's just a hunch. I'm overthinking it." Shen Jingxuan said.
The Queen raised her eyebrows: "Really? If you think too much, then don't ask. Just treat it as a joke."
After the queen finished speaking, the corners of her lips curled slightly. It seemed that she was overthinking. Shen Jingxuan did not understand the meaning of her words.
Seeing that the Queen would not continue, Shen Jingxuan said: "Queen, can I write you a prescription to treat your cough?"
Since she was asked to take my pulse and it has been done, if no prescription is needed, she should be allowed to leave the palace.
The Queen said calmly, "Okay, go and write on the desk."
She had been suffering from cough for several years, and the palace doctors had no way to treat her, so they could only take care of her.
Shen Jingxuan came to the desk and saw some papers on it, covered with dense words.
She glanced at it and found that it was actually copied Buddhist scriptures.
Shen Jingxuan picked up the pen and quickly wrote the prescription. She didn't want to stay for long and just wanted to leave the palace as soon as possible.
When she finished writing the prescription and was about to get up, Shen Jingxuan was shocked for a moment.