Chapter 195 The Sickness Attacks
His voice sounded particularly cold in the darkness, but a hot tear quietly slid down the corner of his eye.
"Am I born into this world just to hurt those who are sincere to me?"
Qi Tongwei closed his eyes in pain, and Anna's eyes full of love and trust kept appearing in his mind, "I took advantage of her feelings, I deserve to die!"
He sat up suddenly, grabbed his hair with both hands, and his voice was filled with suppressed tears.
During the day, Qi Tongwei pretended to be strong in front of his family and tried to maintain a normal life.
But when he was alone, he would fall into deep longing for Anna and self-blame.
"I thought I could forget, I thought time could erase everything, but I was wrong." His voice was low and hoarse, as if it came from the depths of his soul.
Sometimes, Qi Tongwei would walk to the window, look at the stars in the night sky, and murmur: "Anna, can you hear my confession? I will never be able to forgive myself in my life."
Tears blurred his vision again, but he stubbornly refused to let himself cry out, just swallowing the pain silently.
"I am a coward and I am afraid to face my mistakes."
Qi Tongwei punched the wall. The pain in his hand could not relieve the pain in his heart. "Anna, you hate me, I am not worthy of your love."
For countless nights, Qi Tongwei endured his inner torment alone in the darkness.
His coldness was just a disguise, but in a corner unknown to anyone, his heart had already been broken, tortured by the guilt and longing for Anna.
"Maybe this is my retribution." Qi Tongwei smiled bitterly, tears streaming down his cheeks. "I hurt such a beautiful woman. I deserve to suffer for the rest of my life."
As the days passed, Qi Tongwei's longing for Anna did not diminish in the slightest, but became stronger and stronger.
He knew that this guilt would always be with him and become an inescapable shackle in his heart.
So, every quiet night, he would sit alone in front of the window, staring at the dark night sky, recalling every moment he spent with Anna.
The laughter and gentle glances they once had have now become sharp blades that pierce his heart.
He often saw Anna's sad eyes in his dreams, and when he woke up his clothes were wet with tears.
"Anna, I was wrong. I ruined our happiness with my own hands." He murmured to himself in the empty room, his voice filled with endless regret.
Qi Tongwei began to try to make up for his mistakes in various ways.
He silently paid attention to Anna's life, but did not dare to appear in front of her again.
He would secretly send Anna her favorite flowers and anonymously fund her living expenses.
However, these insignificant actions could not alleviate the heavy guilt in his heart.
At the same time, Liang Lu, who was with the child, gradually noticed Qi Tongwei's abnormality.
He was often absent-minded, and his eyes revealed deep pain and confusion.
Liang Lu began to doubt his recent motives. She secretly observed Qi Tongwei's every move, trying to find out the root cause of his change.
"Qi Tongwei, what's wrong with you recently? Why are you always absent-minded?" Liang Lu finally couldn't help but ask.
Qi Tongwei avoided her gaze in panic and said hesitantly, "It's nothing, it's just that the pressure at work is too great."
Liang Lu obviously didn't believe his excuse, "Work pressure? I don't think it's that simple. Are you hiding something from me?"
Qi Tongwei remained silent. He was unable to confess his feelings and guilt towards Anna to Liang Lu.
As time went by, Qi Tongwei's physical condition became worse and worse.
The long-term longing and guilt tortured his spirit and his body gradually collapsed.
During a physical examination, the doctor told him solemnly that he had pancreatic cancer and it was already in the middle to late stages.
This news was like a bolt from the blue, plunging Qi Tongwei into deeper despair.
He knew that his life might be coming to an end, but the debt he felt to Anna could never be made up.
Lying on the hospital bed, Qi Tongwei looked increasingly haggard.
His eyes had lost their former luster and were filled with endless sorrow.
"I will have to pay the price for my sinful life," he said to himself.
When Liang Lu learned about Qi Tongwei's illness, she was shocked and her heart was filled with complicated emotions.
She looked at the weak Qi Tongwei on the hospital bed, feeling both resentment and a hint of pity in her heart.
"Qi Tongwei, no matter what, you have to treat your illness well." There was a hint of helplessness in Liang Lu's voice.
Qi Tongwei smiled bitterly and shook his head, "This is my retribution. I deserve it."
Liang Lu sighed, "Even if it's for the child, you can't just give up like this."
Qi Tongwei closed his eyes and tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes again.
He knew that his mistake not only hurt Anna, but also Liang Lu and the child.
His heart seemed to be entangled by thousands of threads, tangled and contradictory.
Thinking of his illness, he felt deeply frightened and helpless.
The pain from pancreatic cancer became increasingly severe, and each attack felt like countless bugs were gnawing at his internal organs.
He knew clearly that he might not have much time left.
The child's innocent smile always appears in his mind. The child is still so young and has a long way to go in the future, but he cannot accompany him to grow up and cannot give him the fatherly love he deserves. This makes Qi Tongwei feel heartbroken.
Liang Lu, the woman who had been through thick and thin with him, he had been grateful to her and also resentful of her.
Now, he just felt like a burden in her life.
At work, Qi Tongwei was absent-minded every time he performed a task.
The decisive and brave man he once was is gone, replaced by Qi Tongwei who is often distracted and hesitant.
He made more and more mistakes and his efficiency became lower and lower, and the captain saw all of this.
Finally, the captain talked to him and said, "Qi Tongwei, you haven't been in a good state recently. If you continue like this, it will affect the entire team. I decided to give you a long vacation so that you can adjust yourself."
Qi Tongwei nodded silently, he knew that he was no longer capable of doing the job.
At the same time, Liang Qunfeng also learned about Qi Tongwei's illness.
Liang Qunfeng's first reaction after learning about this was to let Liang Lu divorce Qi Tongwei. He couldn't let Qi Tongwei ruin his daughter's future.
"Liang Lu, you can't continue with Qi Tongwei. He is seriously ill now and his future is dark. You are still young and can't be dragged down by him."
Liang Qunfeng said to Liang Lu seriously.
Liang Lu remained silent, she was struggling inside.
On the one hand, her feelings for Qi Tongwei had long been shattered;
On the other hand, the years of marital love made it difficult for her to let go.