Chapter 207 Combat Weapons
——Where does my life come from?
——Why am I here?
When you are sinking into the silent black abyss.
Such doubts surfaced in Kawahara's mind.
After his experience in Decade's world, Kawahara knew that he would have to face the issue of identity one day after returning to this world.
Kawahara believes that he is not from this world.
And it is impossible for the Black God to fail to recognize the human he created. After all, if he really couldn't recognize it, wouldn't it mean that all the humans in the world could be the Black God's children...
Then, perhaps he had been chosen by fate the moment he woke up from the ancient times.
So he really became a person of this world.
Just as Baluba said, he is a special existence, so he possessed the ultimate darkness from the beginning, and also possessed the power of light on the other side. He even possessed the creative power to create the world.
But knowing these things only made his doubts even greater.
——Where does my life come from?
——Where is my life going?
Is it to destroy the power of light?
Is it to destroy Agito?
Or maybe just keep fighting.
When a person is not sure what he should do, he should empty his mind and act according to his instinct. This will solve all confusion!
Kawahara was like this before he came to this world.
However, after coming to this world, those things driven by instinct were exactly not what Kawahara wanted to do, and they were even things he was unwilling to do.
Yes! He was very reluctant!
This is a self-will that is even stronger than "instinct", so how could there be any possibility of confusion?
So after telling everything to Kaoru Ichijo, Kawahara also set up a mechanism for his own subconscious mind.
Just like when he left a hint in his subconscious mind in order to stay in the ZiO world, he forced himself to wake up from the "summoning" after traveling through time, and he also told himself not to resist the means that would come from Kaoru Ichijo.
After being hit by Yaguru's belt, he didn't know what would happen to him, nor did he know whether he would stop his out-of-control behavior.
But at least you can give it a try.
So there is no need for you to confront the Black God head-on. You should be able to do this simple thing, right?
The power of light - Promise!
……
A ray of light emerged from Kawahara's dark consciousness, and in the light was a blond young man wearing white clothes. The other person had a face exactly like Kurokami.
But compared to the complex and irresistible majesty of the Black God, Prometheus's eyebrows were softer, and his eyes were filled with warm compassion.
The other party looked at him and said softly: "Your future and where to go should be decided by you."
Kawahara asked, "Is this just your power, or the embodiment of your will?"
Promith smiled slightly, but before he could say anything else, a young man in black who suddenly appeared from the opposite side swung a beam of light at him!
Wow——!
Promith, who noticed the movement, turned his head to look, and the next moment, his entire glowing figure disappeared in the beam of light.
Kawahara watched this scene speechlessly.
The Black God appeared in front of him with an unyielding look: "You were influenced by his will, so you forgot what you had to do, and were bewitched by him to protect Agito. His actions will only cause you greater harm in the future!"
"how about you?"
Kawahara asked back while looking at him fearlessly.
Heishen was slightly stunned.
Kawahara's expression suddenly became sharp and cold. He stared at the God of Creation in front of him with a sharp gaze and slowly uttered each word in a suppressed voice.
“If he’s influencing me to do things that are good for him, then what have you asked me to do?
"You are influencing me just as much, even more than he is.
"You made me feel something that didn't belong to me about the existence of the power of light. You used it to control me to do things I didn't want to do and made me fight Agito." The Black God looked at him unmoved: "Because the power of light obtained by humans will not bring good results. What he did will only make humans more greedy and ugly, so we have to destroy it!"
"So you chose to let me deal with them."
Kawahara suddenly said this.
"……what?"
Heishen was stunned for a moment, as if he vaguely sensed another meaning in the words.
Kawahara continued expressionlessly, "Because you created humans in your own image, you treat them as your own children. Even if you don't recognize the possibilities of humans, you still love them very much.
“You cannot tolerate the existence of the power of light, but it also hurts you to hurt your own children.
"So you just let me do it all for you, to destroy the power of light, to destroy the humans who have become Agito. You choose to inflict all this pain on me."
"..."
Heishen opened his mouth in a daze, looking at him in astonishment as he said these words.
Kawahara was already gritting his teeth: "Then, you who have transferred these pains that should not be borne by me to me, why do you think that Promise's influence on me will cause greater harm?"
This contrast suddenly made Heishen react.
Heishen couldn't help but said angrily: "So you shouldn't have approached Agito from the beginning. You exist to destroy all Agitos!"
"So I am just a [combat weapon] that you created, right?!"
Kawahara suddenly shouted in anger.
Heishen was suddenly startled and his eyes widened.
——Is it a combat weapon?
Looking at the person in front of him who was showing anger and even hatred towards him, and feeling the resistance and disobedience that was stronger than any other human being, he suddenly didn't know what to say next.
——Are you just using children as weapons?
He couldn't respond to this question, and Heishen even stepped back with some fear, and then he disappeared.
……
Kawahara slowly calmed down the anger in his chest, silently looked at the empty darkness in front of him, then lowered his head and fell into deep thought.
So he guessed right...
He is really just a biological weapon that only needs to fight to deal with "Agito"...
Before Kawahara had time to build up any pessimistic emotions, his entire consciousness suddenly fell downward, and he was awakened with a bang as if in free fall!
Swish-!
His eyes shot open.
There was no unfamiliar ceiling above my head, and there was no unfamiliar room setting around me. This was obviously a hospital ward.
Not a battlefield?
Is it over?
But since he was taken back to Kanto Medical University Hospital instead of to some research institute, it means that the subsequent development of the matter should be controllable.
It turns out that a police officer is more reliable.
Kawahara sat up slowly, rubbing his forehead to regain consciousness.
At this moment, there was a slight movement beside him. He subconsciously turned his head and saw Baluba, who was wearing a white coat and a knitted long skirt, sitting on the chair.
When he looked over, Baluba showed her usual mysterious smile.
"Why are you here?" Kawahara frowned.
Baluba smiled and said word by word: "War, fight, weapons~"
Kawahara: "..."
...(End of chapter)