Chapter 219: Distinguishing the Heart
The night is long and the moonlight is fleeting.
Late at night, Shen Xuanxi stood up and left with a complicated look.
Going up the mountain tonight, she finally got to see someone, and with such joy, all her worries disappeared.
But he could vaguely sense Li Yuan's indifference.
In this way, my emotions become complicated and difficult to express.
Is it because we haven't seen each other for a long time, or is it someone's deliberate act?
She, I don't know...
Watching Shen Xuanxi leave, Li Yuan still sat on the edge of the bamboo forest cliff and did not see him off.
He looked quietly at the starry night sky, frowning slightly.
"If it is the calamity of love in the mortal world..."
"You might as well just chop me a few times."
Li Yuan looked up to the sky and sighed, feeling a little upset.
He can cut off the distracting thoughts in his mind, maintain a pure state of mind, and not be contaminated by the mundane world.
But it is difficult to eliminate the vague feelings in the other person's heart.
When cause and effect come together, it is not possible to avoid it by simply deciding not to be involved.
The sense of calamity even erased his perception as an immortal god.
Otherwise, how could he let a mortal woman approach him without him knowing.
This disaster...
It is easy to cut off feelings, but hard to make peace with the heart.
Li Yuan gradually sat up cross-legged, with his five hearts facing the sky. His whole body radiated a bright light, and he looked clearly into his own heart.
At this moment, he thought about a lot.
The cause and effect of heaven and earth, and the distinction between immortals and mortals.
The mundane world, or the fairyland in the mountains.
Even the past and the future are all taken into consideration.
But in the end, only a confusing result was obtained.
It seems that the more one avoids it, the more violent the calamity becomes.
It was originally just a light-hearted state of mind, but now it has turned into a paranoid obsession.
Li Yuan pondered all night, and when dawn was approaching, he became furious.
"It's hard to avoid the disaster, so I won't avoid it!"
"At worst, I can just cut off my own heart and let go of all distracting thoughts every day!"
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Li Yuan began to return to his previous habits.
He sat in the bamboo forest during the day, just like he used to, drinking a cup of warm tea and gazing at the mountains and rivers.
He wanders the mountains at night, teaching the spirits.
A few days later, Shen Xuanxi went up the mountain to worship the gods again and came to the bamboo forest.
She had no hope at first, but then she saw Li Yuan in the bamboo forest.
"It's my luck."
Shen Xuanxi had a gentle demeanor, a dignified temperament, and there seemed to be a gleam in her eyes.
He walked closer to the stone table, smiled slightly, and gracefully poured Li Yuan a cup of tea and also poured himself a cup.
She has a slim figure and a beautiful face. At this moment, she is smiling softly, and her eyes, which have always been gentle as water, seem a little playful.
Shen Xuanxi's words, with a hint of sarcasm, were exactly her response when Li Yuan first invited her for tea.
Li Yuan was slightly stunned and couldn't help but shake his head and chuckle.
The two of them drank tea and talked for a long time in the bamboo forest, the bamboo leaves danced and the breeze was blowing.
When there is someone in your eyes.
The sky and the earth, the mountains and the rivers, all turned into faded paintings.
a long time.
Shen Xuanxi smiled with her eyes, bowed to Li Yuan slightly shyly, and left slowly.
She felt that what she had said today was a bit too much and was afraid of disturbing others.
But when I turned around, it seemed that all kinds of thoughts were churning around, and I couldn't express them all.
This feeling made Shen Xuanxi feel a little overwhelmed.
And when that gentle and slender figure walked away.
Li Yuanze's eyes were calm, and his spiritual consciousness turned into a knife, cutting off all the waves.
He remembered everything, but seemed to have forced himself into a bystander's perspective.
This way, it is less touching.
"Without mind, there is no intention. Without thoughts, there is no disaster."
Li Yuan muttered to himself, then took a step out of the bamboo forest and disappeared.
The golden beads and jade plates splashed with sunlight.
The grass and trees wither and grow green, and the green flowers are covered with frost.
A very long time.
Shen Xuanxi never came again.
Li Yuan still drinks tea in the bamboo forest every day, feeling quite comfortable.
Until the depths of autumn.
That gentle figure appeared in the bamboo forest again.
But he was full of worries and could not hide his tiredness.
"Master Li."
Shen Xuanxi was wearing an exquisite and beautiful red dress. She bowed, with a gentle look and a hint of a smile.
Li Yuan nodded slightly and poured her a cup of tea.
Shen Xuanxi looked at the cup of tea with a serious look, silent for a long time.
"There is fierce factional fighting in the court."
"I, Shen, have been following His Majesty the Emperor, trying to put an end to this turbulent situation."
"But the radical faction, the Lin family, has been secretly raising private armies and using the prestige of the imperial court to plunder the people. Now that they have become powerful, they have already begun to rebel."
"A few days ago, he even brought a knife into the palace and had a long talk with His Majesty the Emperor."
"In order to maintain peace, your majesty...grants the marriage to Shen."
"We will hold our wedding ceremony with Lin on an auspicious date after the New Year."
Li Yuan's expression remained calm. He drank his tea quietly and said nothing.
Seeing that he was silent, Shen Xuanxi's eyes became slightly scorching.
There was a look of uneasiness and anxiety, something he had never seen before.
"I... am the only daughter of the Shen family."
There was a slight tremor in his voice as he spoke.
Li Yuan was silent for a moment, then a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
"So, Miss Shen came here today to say goodbye to me?"
Shen Xuanxi's body seemed to shake, and he forced a smile.
"Yes... yes."
"The Shen family is in a critical situation. As the legitimate daughter, I should dedicate myself to the family."
She narrowed her eyes and looked at the mountains, rivers and all things, as if burying some words deep in her heart.
Li Yuan sighed softly, hiding all his emotions.
"Um......"
His words were concise, with a barely perceptible indifference.
Hear this word.
The originally calm Shen Xuanxi's eyes finally turned red.
She bit her red lips lightly, with a sad look on her brows.
Looking straight at Li Yuan, her pair of glass-like eyes flickered, as if containing a thousand layers of waves.
There are thousands of words in my heart that I want to say.
But in the end, it turned into silent eyes.
Li Yuan turned around and happened to meet those red eyes.
Looking at the complex emotions on that beautiful face, my heart trembled violently.
It's like being hit by a sledgehammer.
The bamboo shadows sway, warm light falls, and golden spots are like stars.
Shen Xuanxi lowered his eyes that contained thousands of words, bowed gently, and turned to leave.
The curvy, dignified and steady figure seemed to be trembling slightly.
She is wearing a graceful red dress, which seems out of place in this lush bamboo forest, yet she is incredibly beautiful.
The departing figure is as graceful as a startled wild goose.
After she left, Li Yuan's face trembled a few times and he slowly closed his eyes.
He wanted to use his spiritual consciousness as a knife to cut off the throbbing in his heart once again.
But this time, they couldn't be completely cut off or eliminated.
After erasing it again and again, that bright red figure will appear in my mind again.
And those eyes, rippling with water, are filled with sadness and sorrow, so profound.
"Do you really have to force me to this point?"
Li Yuan looked up at the sky indifferently, with a hint of anger in his expression.
The sky is silent and indifferent.
He stood silently in the bamboo forest, his heart churning.
This station did not move for several days and nights.
Finally, Li Yuan took a deep breath.
"I am a fairy god. I can be shaken, but I cannot be truly shaken."
He talked to himself, his words were clear.
"The gods and immortals stand under the heavenly way, governing all living things, and have their own responsibilities."
"The so-called love in the mortal world is hard to understand, but..."
"It's not enough to disturb my mind."
Li Yuan murmured softly, his eyes becoming deep and obscure.
"You just want to force me to choose between humanity and divinity..."
"This is my calamity, and I bear it voluntarily."
"It's just that you shouldn't...use the sincerity of an innocent woman to face the calamity!"
He looked up at the sky, and the Fushang Sword behind him trembled, as if endless sword energy was gushing out.
"Do you know that forcing me is also a cause and effect?!"