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tomorrow
Let’s see tomorrow.
See if the conversation with her father leads to any improvement.
He really can't bear to part with this child now.
Fujii Itsuki tried his best to calm himself down, closed his eyes and went to sleep.
Chapter 129 Jiuhua Longyi's Abacus
Fujii Itsuki couldn't sleep at night. Around three or four o'clock, he would close his eyes for a while and then start tossing and turning.
He also had nightmares.
I dreamed that I lost my job, that Jiuhua was taken back to Tokyo by her parents, that Xinchun no longer contacted me, that Chitose didn't love me, that the director had a sudden high blood pressure, and that the welfare home closed down.
It was like... everything was gone in an instant.
After being awakened once or twice in the middle of the night, Fujii Itsuki lost all desire to sleep.
"What are these dreams?"
He propped himself up, got off the bed, and opened the window of the ward.
The wind blew in.
Otaru is a coastal city close to the sea.
The municipal hospital is also near Linhai.
Fortunately, the night wind was still quite fresh. After standing by the window for a while, Fujii Itsuki felt much better.
He was thinking about the nightmare he just had.
Do these things represent things that you don’t want to happen deep down in your heart?
Perhaps life after returning to Otaru is too fulfilling.
Fujii Itsuki had somewhat forgotten what it was like to be in Tokyo.
A cramped rental house.
The work of oppression.
A life with no end in sight.
Apart from sending some money to the welfare home every month, he didn't know what to look forward to in life.
When I am busy and tired every day, my favorite thing to do is to light a cigarette by the window, and look at the bustling streets of Tokyo through the window which is less than 30 centimeters wide, and the bright lights and endless stream of people and vehicles in the city of Tokyo.
Even though I know that I don't like being alone and want someone to talk to me, watch movies with me, and eat delicious food with me, it is still difficult to move forward, and I keep feeling uncomfortable.
Until I left Tokyo and returned to Otaru and met everyone.
Jiuhuayue: [Uncle, I can’t sleep.]
Perhaps it was a telepathic connection, or perhaps it was a coincidence, Jiu Huayue sent him a text message at this time.
Fujii Itsuki smiled, picked up the phone and replied: "What's wrong?"
Jiuhuayue: [Uncle, you are still awake? It’s already four in the morning!]
Fujii Itsuki: "No. I know you type slowly, why don't you use voice and we can talk slowly."
Jiuhuayue: [voice].
After seeing the new message, Fujii Itsuki turned up the volume on his phone and clicked on Xiao Jiuhua's voice message.
Her voice is very nice, like a bird's.
I don’t know if she was suffocating in the quilt or was too sleepy to have any energy, but her voice was still a little delicate.
Jiuhuayue: [I want to find you.]
This is too ambiguous.
Fujii Itsuki: "You are at home now, right? Your parents are watching you, so it's not appropriate for you to come out."
Jiuhuayue: [I'm in a hotel outside, I can come out anytime.]
Jiu Huayue: [I don’t want to go back to that house where they are. Uncle, if you are not here, I don’t want to go back to that house]
this
Even through the phone screen, Fujii Itsuki could see that Xiao Jiuhua was becoming more and more dependent on him.
Fujii Itsuki: "Girl, don't take me too seriously."
Jiuhuayue: [Who else can I look up to?]
Fujii Itsuki: "Yourself."
Jiuhuayue: [Not at all.]
Fujii Itsuki: "I'm serious, Kouka-chan."
Jiuhuayue: [But after I came to Otaru, I always valued my own ideas and always followed my own ideas, but no one supported me, and no one agreed with my ideas. I felt very uncomfortable.]
Fujii Itsuki: "I am not supporting you?"
Jiu Huayue: [So, why can't I take you seriously, uncle?]
Fujii Itsuki: “.”
I've been tricked.
Jiuhuayue actually got around to come back.
Is she too smart and doing it on purpose, or is this her true feeling?
Jiuhuayue: [I really want to ask you a question. Can you answer me?]
Fujii Itsuki: “Ask.”
Jiuhuayue: [Uncle, I left Otaru. Will you miss me?]
This is really a——
Heavy question.
Fujii Itsuki didn't know how to answer for a moment.
If I answered her this question, does it mean that I gave her an unrealistic expectation?
But if I don't answer her.
How will she face her life in Tokyo in the future?
Through the screen, Fujii Itsuki couldn't see Jiuhua's expression.
But through Xiao Jiuhua's question, he could imagine what Jiuhua's situation was like on the other side——
A little girl, huddled in an unfamiliar hotel room, holding her cell phone, typed the most serious words at a slow pace, sending this message to herself with the most expectant eyes, the most fearful and nervous mind.
How should I reply to her?
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Fujii Itsuki pondered for a moment and figured it out.
Hesitation is a sign of irresponsibility.
I have done so much for Xiao Jiuhua, and she has done so much for me. She regards me as her best friend, so why can't I live up to her expectations?
Fujii Itsuki was about to reply, but he didn't expect Jiuhuayue to send another message.
[I think I’m a little too anxious! I’ll answer you later!]
The conversation ends here.
Jiuhuayue never sent another message.
Fujii Itsuki also put down his phone.
He suddenly realized that there was still a small gap between him and Jiuhuayue.
This gap puts him and her in a state of being close but not yet close.
The feeling is different from Tongxinchun.
It is somewhat similar to Qiansui.
But Qiansui still wants to be closer to me.
At least Qiansui can curl up in his arms without restraint and call Shu brother.
Whenever she is sad, she will come to me and ask me to hug her.
Jiuhua is not like this.
Fujii Itsuki probably knew what this feeling was.
It was the same feeling as before I eloped with Chitose to Tokyo.
They are not prepared to bear the other person's emotions.
Around seven in the morning, Fujii Itsuki got up, signed at the hospital counter, and completed the discharge procedures around seven-forty.
I made a phone call to Jiu Huayue and they agreed to meet at the station.
Jiuhua Longyi wants to talk to him today.
On the bus.
When Fujii Itsuki saw the gauze on Jiuhuayue's face, he felt both distressed and a little funny.
"What are you laughing at!" Jiu Huayue pouted, "Uncle, you too!"
"It's okay. I'm just a little curious. What can your father say to me? Jiuhua, do you know?"
"I don't know."
"Nine flowers."