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"why?"
Akai Muzi pondered for a moment and said:
"Ashu, don't you think it's unfaithful to be married to a man and think about another man in your heart?"
Fujii Itsuki knew she was talking about herself.
Akai Muzi smiled to herself as if she was mocking herself.
"I think the biggest mistake I made in my life was choosing to go to America and bravely pursue my dream. As a result, my dream was gone, and I lost you as well.
"Every time I think of your words of encouragement to me to pursue my dreams before I left, I feel sorry for you. After arriving in the United States, I have questioned myself countless times: Is this the right choice? Is this the right choice?
“Every night after studying at university, I would think about you at night, wondering how you are doing, whether you have eaten properly, and whether you are living such a mess without my supervision.
"But I dare not contact you. I am afraid that I will completely lose my courage, my goals and direction, and flee from the United States back to you. Shu. Do you know what this means to me?"
When Fujii Itsuki heard this, he completely understood what Muzi meant. He sighed:
"self-abasement."
"Yes. I have low self-esteem. In high school, I always felt that I was not worthy of you. You are the genius in the class, an excellent student in the eyes of teachers. Even if some people don't like you, you can still shine among a group of people.
"I remember that I used to only dare to hide in the corner and watch you, seeing how outstanding you were, how motivated you were, and how dazzling you were.
"What about me? I don't have a father, and my mother is seriously ill. I don't dare to buy an extra set of my school uniform. The first thing I do after class every day is to work illegally to earn money without the school's knowledge."
Akai Muzi smiled to herself again, her voice low.
"How could someone like me possibly be worthy of an excellent student like you? But I also know that when I was secretly watching you, I might have already fallen in love with you. Later, when we entered the wind band together and played together, I learned about your life experience and truly understood you as a person."
"So, Muzi, just confess your feelings to me."
"Yes."
Hear this.
Fujii Itsuki truly understood what Mu Zi’s so-called longing was.
The reason why she admires herself so much and wants to gain courage so much is actually very simple: "inferiority complex".
The feeling of inferiority complex is really annoying.
Chitose should be able to understand, right?
She was often bullied by other kids in the past, who told her that she was "picked up from the trash" and that "no one wants her".
At that time, Chitose was sensitive and withdrawn. If you said anything to her, she would immediately get angry and start crying and fighting with the person opposite her.
Fujii Itsuki still remembers Chitose's expression as she was willing to risk everything for the other party to change his words.
Muzi's father left home when she was young.
He grew up with his mother being seriously ill.
She must have been gossiped about by her classmates or neighbors since she was a child.
But what can she do?
She didn't even have Chitose's natural strength. She couldn't refute, she couldn't take action. She could only endure the words, covering her head, and continue to do her work with her young hands.
After all, her mother at home still needs her.
Life like this for a long time.
There is no one who does not have inferiority complex.
Fujii Itsuki knew that this was not an emotion that could be completely resolved by simply saying “I don’t care.”
All she can do is to try her best to make herself excellent so that she will feel that she is worthy of staying by his side.
Ugh.
Why are the lives of people at the bottom of society always filled with disappointments?
"Then Muzi, you now."
"Me? I still feel that way."
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Fujii Itsuki seemed to remember something and froze, "So, Muzi, that's why you said that to me the day you first arrived in Tokyo?"
"Correct."
"Why bother to humiliate yourself like this?"
"It can't be considered as an insult. After all, Ah Shu, you have always been higher in my heart than me. I am the one who is out of my league. In other words, if you really did it with me, I would be the one taking advantage."
Akai Muzi laughed.
"There's no such thing as high or low."
The topic ended here. The two continued with breakfast and then began to prepare for today's training activities for the wind band.
Following Mu Zi, Fujii Itsuki never thought that such a strong woman could be so sensitive and fragile.
It seems that I didn't know her well enough in the past.
Fujii Itsuki felt sorry for her.
No further mention was made of what happened in the morning, and the training of the wind band went on as usual.
Even in a place like Karuizawa, everyone was still able to stop playing around and persist in practicing. Fujii Itsuki felt that he should not let them down.
There was no rift between Chitose and Matsumae because of what happened last night.
The two still have a good relationship
They often mentioned Hiiragi Rinka when they talked, which made the child very happy.
Of course, Chitose couldn't help but tease Sasahara-san and call her a loli.
What has changed today?
It was probably in the evening.
Fujii Itsuki had just helped the students in the wind band put away the music stands when the always blushing and shy Hiiragi Rinka trotted over to him, her short skirt swaying slightly with the movement of her thighs.
Every time I see these young girls in skirts and bow ties.
Fujii Itsuki thinks that Tachibana Kita's sailor uniform is really cool.
"Teacher Fujii!"
Hiiragi Rinka's face was red, like a frightened deer, and she was holding something in her hand. She came in front of Fujii Itsuki, bowed first, and then called him by his name.
Fujii Itsuki likes cute girls very much and said with a smile:
"What? Any problem with the instrument?"
"No, no! It's this, this, please have a look at it, Mr. Fujii."
A pink letter was handed over to her with both hands, and Hiiragi Rinka turned her face away shyly.
Hey hey, isn't it?
Hiiragi-san, what's wrong with you?
"thank you."
Fujii Itsuki's expression was stiff, but he still accepted the letter from Hiiragi Rinka.
"Can I open it now?"
"Ah? Of course."
This girl speaks so softly
That's too shy.
Fujii Itsuki had already thought of how to reject her.
But when I opened the letter, I found something was wrong.
How
How come it was a letter that Jiuhua wrote to herself?
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A letter from Xiao Jiuhua?
Before officially checking the contents, Fujii Itsuki took a special look at Hiiragi Rinka.
The two are good friends, and judging from their expressions, Rinka knows about this matter.
Does Rinka know that Jiuhua likes her a little and even kissed her?
Most likely you don’t know.
Fujii Itsuki opened the envelope.
He took out the papers inside and found a ticket inside.
Fujii Itsuki held the ticket in front of him and examined it.
"Takarazuka Revue?"
Why is it a ticket for this place?
A handwritten letter with a girl's fragrance was tucked under the ticket.
The handwriting is beautiful and neat.
A girl's handwritten letter always makes people want to read it. Fujii Itsuki prepared to read it all in one go, but after opening it, there was only one eye-catching sentence -
[I will wait for you, uncle].
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wait for me?
Fujii Itsuki repeated these words in his heart.