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Fujii Itsuki closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"So, it's only a matter of time before we break up. It's reasonable for you to reject me now. I'm willing to do those things for you, such as substitute teaching, and I'm willing to do it. First, thank you for accepting me in the past and leading me to experience something that I can't imagine.
"Second, I'm really sorry for leaving you. I'm so sorry, so sorry, so sorry."
Akai Muzi lowered her head as she spoke, and her voice became smaller and smaller as her apology became more serious.
"I confessed to you, I never had any hope of success. I was just attracted to you, infected by your personality that always moves forward, and I admired you. I confessed to you, I never had any hope of success. After all, I was just a person who couldn't even be called a girl since childhood.
“But, Shu, you promised me.
“You agreed to my confession.
“And gave me everything.”
Chapter 153: Old Love Resurfaces
Fujii Itsuki has always wondered why humans are human.
Morality, society, thinking, creation.
These elements should all be included in the category of "human beings".
If you meet a cute puppy that sticks to your feet on the road, and it suddenly dies.
Fujii Itsuki thought that most people would show sadness.
So why would people have such thoughts about a creature that has nothing to do with themselves and is even a different species?
Fujii Itsuki's answer is simple: emotion.
Human emotions are often much richer and more complex than those of animals.
And be laid back enough to feel other people’s emotions.
So after hearing what Muzi said to him, Fujii Itsuki was no longer angry about what happened in the past.
in contrast.
Understanding her, feeling her, and sympathizing with her have become the main theme now.
"Ugh"
I sighed in my heart.
I thought to myself that I should do something.
Akai Muzi lowered her head for a long time, and in the silent silence, she suddenly felt her head became much heavier.
It's a pair of hands.
When she lowered her head, these hands gently touched and rubbed her slowly.
At first, Akai Muko gently shook her head as the hands moved, but then she couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"Really? You think I'm your landlord?"
"Now it seems that there is actually no difference between you and her."
"I think I'm much more mature than her."
"But the weakness in my heart remains the same."
"."
Akai Muzi still kept her head down, and Fujii Itsuki's action of touching her head looked more and more like he was comforting a child.
It's obvious that they are not lovers yet.
This feeling is so awkward.
Really.
We are both of such age now, and I am an adult who has been in society for a long time.
But why do I still like him to touch my head now?
Do you like him treating you like a child?
Or do you prefer to become a little kid in front of him?
Akai Muzi clenched her hands on her knees, and as he touched her head, she suddenly remembered the self-abased little girl in the past and couldn't help but wipe her eyes with her palms.
She thinks it's a bit of both.
After taking a deep breath, Akai Muzi quickly returned to her normal state.
"It's the first time I saw you cry."
"Is it."
Seeing that her mood had improved, Fujii Itsuki withdrew his hand and sat up straight. "I think that no matter how old a person becomes, there is always a childish heart buried deep inside."
"Where has your theory been demonstrated?" Akai Muzi turned her head and looked at Fujii Itsuki who was also kneeling beside her.
"Don't many adults like to play with children? No matter how childish the children are, they will play with them. This is a manifestation of childishness. Oh, yes, some people do this to make up for their childhood. They play with children to take care of the past self who did not have a childhood."
"Then Ah Shu, you just..."
"That's what I just thought."
Akai Muzi stared into his eyes for a long time, suddenly pouted her lips, and punched him directly in the chest.
"Why did you hit me?" Fujii Itsuki covered his chest and looked at her.
"Scumbag."
"Is it a scumbag?"
"Do you do this to everyone?"
Fujii Itsuki thought carefully.
The images of Chitose, Matsumae, and Kuka flashed by one by one.
There were more than one scene where they threw themselves into his arms and enjoyed themselves.
".Hiss. It seems to be true."
"You don't plan to change?"
"It can't change."
Akai Muzi became dissatisfied and puffed up her face like a little girl, "That's why I said you are a scumbag."
"It's just scum."
"Shu, did you have dozens of girlfriends when you were in college?"
"I'm still a virgin!"
".But I've never seen a man who can talk about scum so easily."
"So you don't want me to comfort you?"
Fujii Itsuki's rhetorical question rendered Akai Muko speechless. She lowered her head and clenched her hands in front of her grandparents' tablets.
".That's not the case. On the contrary, I'm very happy to receive your comfort just now."
Fujii Itsuki saw Akai Muzi's face that looked like a little girl's temper, and couldn't help but sigh: "Your life has been hard enough, and you haven't met anyone who takes care of you along the way. How can I just stand by and watch when I pass by and see this?"
“Spreading emotions randomly”
"But don't you need it?"
As Akai Muzi listened, she smiled to herself.
"Yeah. It seems that I am greedy. I should be grateful to you for taking care of me. If I continue to expect you to take more care of me, I will be letting you down."
"So you've thought it through now, right? Are you planning to give up pursuing me?"
Akai Muzi did not answer this question immediately, but asked another question:
"Shu, am I a puppy you picked up on your life's journey? You only have sympathy for me."
"It doesn't count."
"What kind of answer is that? It's too ambiguous."
Fujii Itsuki closed his eyes:
“Humans are leisurely animals, and precisely because they are leisurely, they are full of emotions. There is nothing wrong with using sympathy as an opportunity to get to know you, and then contact you, trust you, and accept you.
"At the beginning, I did sympathize with your situation, and you were indeed a 'puppy', but after I got to know you and agreed to confess my love to you, you became a complete person next to me. This cannot be replaced by a shallow word like 'puppy'.
“In short, you mean a lot to me.
"Besides, why don't you tell me if you have low self-esteem or something? I don't care if your hands are rough or your clothes are pretty.
"You are my first love."
"As expected of a student of literature," Akai Muzi opened her mouth wide.
“It’s just a superficial truth.”
"No, I'm talking about your ability to pick up girls. It seems that many novelists are good at picking up girls, such as Junichi Watanabe who wrote Paradise Lost."
"Because writers need to understand the emotions of the characters in the book when reading it, so they have a more delicate grasp of their thoughts. But I am very innocent."
"What am I to you now, tree?"
"Do you want to hear the truth?"
"certainly."
"An old first love that has not yet come to fruition."
Akai Muzi's eyes suddenly widened, and a long word popped out from her lips under the repression:
"you--"
"I'm just telling the truth."
Fujii Itsuki paused, his eyes still closed.