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"Is it."
"That's right," Akai Muzi nodded as a matter of course, "The sense of guilt should be based on the other party's unwillingness. Ah Shu, you kissed me so much, and I felt very comfortable too."
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"And Shu, you were drunk. It was Shu who did it, not you, Shu. So, don't be so harsh on yourself."
Fujii Itsuki didn't know whether Muzi said this to comfort herself.
Her last words were a little far-fetched.
But I can clearly hear that Muzi is telling me not to pay attention to her.
"Xiaoyue is still young, so she is more sensitive to this kind of thing. Go and have a good talk with her, maybe she will forgive you."
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"Ashu, I'm an adult now, I won't care too much about this kind of thing, you can kiss me, you can touch me, I won't feel uncomfortable or lose a piece of flesh, anyway, I feel very happy. And didn't I tell you when we went to Tokyo for a school trip that you can come to me anytime if you feel uncomfortable, I will play whatever you want with you at any time.
"Xiaoyue needs you to ask more questions now. She is still a simple-minded child.
"Hey! Don't ask me why I am willing to do this to you!
"I've said it before, and you know it yourself. You are my first love whom I will always admire in this life!"
Akai Muzi said this happily and pushed Fujii Itsuki out of her room.
She didn't say anything more, just smiled and told herself to go and talk to Jiu Huayue as soon as possible. She waved her hand and then closed the door.
It was morning now and the sun was bright but not scorching.
Standing at the door, Fujii Itsuki didn't know what kind of mood this was.
But he inexplicably felt that when Muzi closed this door, it might be because she was hiding her deepest sorrow.
Akai Muzi said all disguised lies.
Which normal woman doesn't care about her chastity?
Even after being forced to kiss her, she told the other person that she didn't have to take responsibility or something like that. It was simply because Muzi wanted to stop herself from feeling guilty because of her.
I don’t know if Muzi understands this or not. The more she is like this, the more uncomfortable I feel.
Fujii Itsuki walked onto the street, turned around, and took another look at the old and dilapidated two-story apartment behind him against the sunlight.
I am increasingly unsure of what this emotion is.
But my heart seemed to be torn off by a piece of wood.
This reminded Fujii Itsuki of the girl who used to be by his side, who went to school and went home with him, went camping with him, and played music with him.
Is this love?
Past love?
If I still have love for Muzi.
Then if I just agree to it, and now only Chitose who likes less love is still there, wouldn't that be irresponsible to Chitose?
Chitose realized this later.
Will it make you even sadder?
The relationship between us seems to be getting more and more complicated.
Fujii Itsuki should not feel sorry for himself in this situation. Instead of feeling sad all the time, he should try harder to think about how to deal with everyone's feelings.
Tell me what you most want to do right now.
That is to try to give these pitiful children some care and warmth.
In short, I hope everyone has a happy ending.
Everyone can be happy.
Um.
This direction will be set as my next goal.
As for how to achieve this goal, Fujii Itsuki still has no idea.
But the road is made step by step, and the nautical charts are recorded after repeated journeys.
The first thing to do is to take the first step.
First, go talk to Jiuhuayue about how to resolve the issue of me kissing her last night, and then get along well with Qiansui and learn to love her.
Yes, let’s do that first.
Chapter 166 "Venture Point"
The atmosphere between the two of them has been quite weird and distant these past two days.
Jiuhua seems to be busy with something these days. She doesn't need to go to class, so she goes out every day.
Fujii Itsuki really wanted to ask her what she was going to do outside, but he was too embarrassed to ask because of the embarrassing incident that happened that night.
Also, because this girl always does everything in a hurry, she often eats dinner out.
I haven't spoken to her in the past few days.
Fujii Itsuki could only assume that she didn't want to communicate with him right now.
Due to the above reasons and the fact that the two of them often have different schedules, the apology has been delayed until now.
As for feeling guilty, that's definitely there.
After all, Ren Jiuhua is a high school girl of about sixteen or seventeen years old.
As an adult and a teacher, I feel unworthy of these two identities.
To the extent that Fujii Itsuki was often absent-minded in class.
This also made Matsumae Shinharu discover something, and she would often come to give Fujii Juju some of the small desserts she made herself in the evening to express her concern.
"Xinchun, there's no need to go to the trouble of coming to visit me." Fujii Itsuki looked at the delicate little cakes in the bamboo basket in his hand.
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"what happened?"
".Is it because I have visited the teacher so many times that the teacher feels annoyed?"
Matsumae Xinchun stood at the door with her eyebrows downcast, her hands tangled together, and her expression was very lost. "I'm sorry to have caused trouble to the teacher. Since the teacher said so, Xinchun will come to visit the teacher less often in the future."
"Absolutely not--"
When Fujii Itsuki saw that Matsumae Shinchun had a bit of Lin Daiyu's vibe, he wanted to explain immediately.
But it was too late.
"What have you been doing these days, Mr. Fujii? I feel like I've become more distant from you. I took the initiative to talk to you at school, but you were always absent-minded.
"Is it because of the previous confession that you are troubled? Or do you feel that you must keep a certain distance from Xinchun?
“I know it’s a little selfish to say that.
"But it was you, teacher, who helped Xinchun get over the past, allowed me to go back to school and make friends, and made me feel the care from the elders. It was also you.
"If you're going to deliberately distance yourself from Xinchun so much."
Matsumae Shinharu's tone became even more depressed.
"My heart is springing. I don't know what to do."
Fujii Itsuki really wanted to refuse Xinchun's pastries.
Because Jiuhua and Muzi's affairs had already made him a little tired of dealing with his own feelings, now there was another Xinchun who had confessed her love to him.
Sometimes Fujii Itsuki really wants to question God?
Why are all the girls around me so nice?
So good that I feel guilty if I reject them.
Fujii Itsuki ah Fujii Itsuki!
This is the dessert Xinchun made for you personally. If you don't accept it, Xinchun can only leave this extra portion at home and let it go bad.
Not only will the food be wasted, but Xinchun will also be even more sad because of being rejected again.
She was alone again.
Haven't you decided to help her?
Don't you want to save her from the same tragedy as the professor in the future?
You have hurt so many girls' hearts, do you want to hurt Xinchun again?
No way.
There is really no other way.
"Xinchun, I didn't mean anything else by what I said just now. I just don't want you to spend too much energy on these things, that's all. Don't think too much about it."
Fujii Itsuki accepted the condolences sent by Xinchun.
The small cakes in the bamboo basket were neatly arranged and decorated with flowers. It was obvious that they were very carefully crafted.
"Thank you, Xinchun."
"I'm glad that Mr. Fujii can accept it." Matsumae Shinchun smiled beautifully.
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Sometimes the girl's expression changed so quickly that Fujii Itsuki had to wonder if she was showing sadness on purpose.
But it looks like it.
What Xinchun said just now was absolutely her true feelings.
She is afraid of distance from herself.
In a sense, this child, like Jiuhua, is afraid of loneliness and of losing someone they can trust and rely on.