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Matsumae Shinchun didn't say anything. She just saw Jiuhuayue standing behind Fujii Itsuki with her arms folded across her chest, looking up with a slightly smug expression on her face.
Matsumae Shinchun looked at Fujii Itsuki's face for a second, but then he held his schoolbag in front of him and bent down slightly:
"Teacher, you should go to bed early at night. Also, I have been to the hospital for gout before, so you should avoid eating foods with high purine content."
Fujii Itsuki was about to speak, but Jiuhuayue suddenly interrupted from behind in a very normal tone:
"Don't worry about that, Xinchun! I've always been watching what uncle can and can't eat!"
Matsumae Shinharu looked gloomy.
Seeing the girl's expression, Fujii Itsuki couldn't help but turn around and remind her:
"Xiao Yue, you're going to quarrel with Xinchun again today, right?"
After Fujii Itsuki said this, Jiuhuayue stopped talking.
"Don't worry about it, Xinchun."
"It's fine."
Fujii Itsuki smiled and said a few words to her, then left.
Matsumae Shinchun stood at the door of his house, watching his and Jiuhuayue's backs gradually move away and become longer under the street lights until they completely disappeared into the darkness.
The girl turned and faced her rented home in Otaru.
There was no light in the house, and the curtain-like night sky made the house look dark.
Matsumae Shinchun returned home with her head down.
She unlocked the door with the key, bent down in silence to take off her leather shoes, put them in the shoe cabinet, and then turned on the light in the living room.
The darkness in the room dissipated instantly.
But Matsumae Shinchun felt that they were just temporarily hiding in an invisible corner. As long as it was late at night and when she was alone, they would slowly slip out from the corner and seep into her heart from a place where she could not resist at all.
Matsumae Shinchun sat down on the small coffee table in the living room.
Just sit down simply.
Staring at the desktop and the small courtyard outside the French window.
Matsumae Xinchun sat here quietly for nearly half an hour, until Baihua suddenly crawled between her kneeling legs and tickled the girl's arm with his tail. She smiled slightly:
"Thank you"
"Woo~"
The snow fox seemed to understand what she was saying and snuggled a little further into her arms.
The girl could feel the snow fox's body temperature, and also felt its intimacy as it approached her.
Matsumae Shinchun reached out and stroked the snow fox's comfortable fur, with a sad expression on her face:
"Lord Baihua, this is so strange."
"Woo~"
"Why. Why do I clearly not want to feel this way? I want to learn to face this kind of environment alone, and I want to bring joy to the people around me at all times. But I always feel this way."
"Woo~"
"You said that I am a person who is both strong and difficult to be strong? Lord Baihua's meaning is too profound, Xinchun cannot fully understand it."
Matsumae Shinchun continued to stroke the snow fox while closing her eyes.
She tried to calm herself down in this cold and lonely night, but as soon as she closed her eyes, all she could think of was the image of Teacher Fujii taking Jiuhuayue home and away from her.
Today's 2,000-meter run was difficult.
It was so severe that she felt chest tightness, shortness of breath, and black eyes. She couldn't even think normally.
But compared to the feeling in my heart at this moment, this kind of discomfort is still far worse.
Matsumae Shinharu kept trying to take deep breaths, kept trying to take deep breaths.
But the anxiety in my heart still continued to emerge.
The girl dragged her inexplicably exhausted body to the TV cabinet, opened the cabinet, and took out the medicine.
At this time, Matsumae Shinchun already felt her breathing become short, as if she was going to pass out from exhaustion at any moment. With shaking hands, she poured the pills out of the bottle, and in her haste, she didn't even prepare a bottle of mineral water, and swallowed the pills directly into her stomach.
Take a deep breath.
Take a deep breath.
She stayed there uncomfortably for ten minutes. The snow fox came to her and rubbed her hand several times. Only then did Matsumae Xinchun have the strength to go back to her room and lie down.
The body feels inexplicably cold.
She pulled the quilt over her head and curled up in it.
Cold sweat kept oozing out.
The shadow that had been hiding in the corner of the room seemed to linger around her at this moment.
The snow fox kept rubbing her face, while Matsumae Shinchun had a weak expression on her face, stroking the snow fox's fur and repeating to it, "It's okay, it's okay," and "Don't worry."
Matsumae Shinchun stuck his head out and lay on the bed for another twenty minutes.
It seemed that the medicine took effect and she felt much better.
"Woo~"
"I'm sorry for making Lord Baihua worried." The girl smiled.
"Woo~"
"Well, Master Baihua is right. Xinchun is very difficult to treat."
"Woo~"
"Do you want me to talk about what happened recently? Lord Baihua wants to hear it? Okay."
Matsumae Shinchun sat up from the bed and hugged her legs in the corner.
"Not long ago, Xiaoyue and I had a quarrel. It was my fault. I really shouldn't have treated Xiaoyue like that. But, Mr. Fujii is as important to Xinchun as her mother.
"Teacher, he——"
Matsumae Shinchun buried her head in her thighs, memories of the past year emerging in her mind.
"The teacher is so good to me. The teacher cares about me, takes care of me, and comforts me. In short, everything is wonderful. Most importantly, my family does not object to the relationship between me and the teacher.
"I know it's not good to drag the teacher into the Matsumae family, which is always in conflict. But the teacher... even after knowing this matter, knowing that this matter will bring him a lot of trouble, he still didn't give up on me.
“Master Baihua, how should Xinchun repay the teacher?
"Xinchun thought about it for a long time, and always felt that she could not repay the teacher, so she could only love him for the rest of her life and try her best to make him not feel sad because of Xinchun.
"But Xinchun herself——"
"Woo~"
"Is it because I am not satisfied? Every time I go home at night, I miss my teacher so much. I want him to be with me, want to eat with him, want to study and improve with him.
"I don't want to see other people around the teacher at all. When the teacher cares about others, he ignores me."
My mood is getting heavier and heavier.
Matsumae Shinchun felt that she was suffering from a longing disease.
I really want to run over to find him right now.
I really wish that when I’m feeling sick, I could receive the same consideration and care I received in the infirmary this afternoon.
"Woo!"
The snow fox's shout brought Matsumae Shinchun out of her emotional abyss.
"I'm sorry. But Master Baihua, do you think Xinchun has any good way to completely defeat Xiaoyue?"
"Woo~~~"
Matsumae Shinchun's ears turned red, "You mean like last time? Last time, didn't you suggest that I take the initiative to let the teacher touch me?"
The girl subconsciously glanced at her chest and then covered it.
"I'm sorry, Lord Baihua, I think this is a bad idea."
".What? Lord Baihua, you said that Mr. Fujii himself is a person who lacks love very much, and is a child who longs for something in his heart. It's just that his experience in the orphanage has caused him to 'restrain' himself and make himself look very strong. He has been pretending for more than 20 years. Is that right? If Xinchun behaves more..."
Matsumae Shinchun was a little embarrassed to say this word.
This word is still too far away for her.
But for the sake of thinking, she still said it out loud:
"If it was more maternal, would Fujii-sensei like Kokoharu more?"
Motherhood.?
Matsumae Shinharu found it hard to imagine this word affecting herself.
After all, she is a person who lacks the company of her mother, so how can she show maternal love?
She...she is not married yet!
It’s still very far away from the children.
Besides, she doesn't even know whether she can be a good mother.
"Master Bai Hua, what do you say? Just tell me the method and follow this and that, and it will be fine?"
"Woo~"
"What is it?"
Before she had even heard half of what was said, Matsumae Shinchun had already hidden her head under the covers.
This, this, this.
This is too shameful!
It’s even more embarrassing than the last time when the teacher touched me!
I don’t even have any children, how can I do this?