Chapter 463 The life you yearn for
Zhang Long was not to be outdone. He said, "Cuicui, although big cities are prosperous, they are also full of pressure and competition. You will be very tired there. Although the conditions in the countryside are a bit tougher, there is real life there. We can farm and raise chickens together and live a simple and happy life."
Cuicui looked at them and felt even more torn. She didn't know how to choose. She longed for the prosperity and opportunities of the big city, but also longed for the tranquility and simplicity of the countryside. She felt that she was caught in a dilemma.
Her mind was a mess, with all kinds of thoughts intertwined, making it difficult for her to make a decision.
On the one hand, she really yearns for the prosperity and opportunities of big cities. She imagines herself in the city wearing beautiful professional clothes, like those female white-collar workers, shuttling between high-rise buildings, busy and fulfilled. She longs for a good job that can show her abilities and realize her own value. In the city, there are various entertainment activities and cultural venues that can broaden her horizons and enrich her life. Moreover, the medical and educational conditions in the city are also better, which will be of great help to her future development.
On the other hand, however, she was attracted by the tranquility and simplicity of the countryside. She recalled the days she spent in the countryside when she was a child, with blue sky and white clouds, green mountains and clear waters, and cordial greetings and mutual help between neighbors. In the countryside, she can stay away from the hustle and bustle and pressure of the city and live a simple and happy life. She can farm and raise chickens with Zhang Long and enjoy the gifts of nature. Although this kind of life is plain, it is full of warmth and happiness.
Cuicui felt that she was in a dilemma. She didn't know how to choose. She didn't want to give up the prosperity and opportunities of the city, but she also didn't want to lose the tranquility and simplicity of the countryside. She felt that her life should have a higher plan, not limited to a certain place.
She was struggling in her heart. She recalled the painful experience of being abducted by human traffickers, which made her think more deeply about life. She realized that life was so fragile and precious that she could not waste time on hesitation. She had to make a decision and take responsibility for her future.
Cuicui began to think seriously about her future. She analyzed her strengths and weaknesses and considered her interests and hobbies. She felt that she had a certain level of education and learning ability and could find a good job in the city. However, she also knew that the competition in the city was very fierce and she needed to work harder to gain a foothold.
In the countryside, although the living conditions are a bit tougher, she can use her hard work and wisdom to create a better life with Zhang Long. Moreover, the development of the countryside is getting faster and faster, and there are many opportunities waiting for her to discover.
Cuicui's heart was still full of contradictions. She didn't know how to express her thoughts to Zhang Long and Qi Tongwei. She knew that Zhang Long wanted her to go to the countryside, while Qi Tongwei wanted her to go to the city. She didn't want to disappoint them or hurt their feelings.
She remembered how good Zhang Long was to her. In the process of looking for her, Zhang Long had put in a lot of effort, and his care and love made her feel warm. She knew that Zhang Long really liked her and wanted to be with her. However, her feelings for Zhang Long were not love, she just regarded him as a good friend and relative.
Qi Tongwei gave her a different feeling. He was brave, strong, and responsible, and his presence made her feel at ease. She had a special feeling for Qi Tongwei, but she was not sure if it was love. She was afraid that she would make the wrong choice and bring more pain to herself and them.
Cuicui was in great pain, she felt she was trapped in an inescapable predicament. She didn't know what to do, she could only cry silently.
She was in deep entanglement, yearning for the prosperity and opportunities of the city, but also attracted by the tranquility and simplicity of the countryside. These contradictory emotions intertwined in her heart, making it difficult for her to make a decision.
She has a special feeling for Qi Tongwei. His courage, strength and sense of responsibility make her feel at ease. However, she is not sure whether this is love. She is afraid that if she makes the wrong choice, it will bring more pain to herself and them. This fear follows her like a shadow and makes her feel tormented.
In this painful tangle, Cuicui suddenly thought of her hometown. That poor and backward place carried her childhood memories and deep attachment. She decided to go back to her hometown first to take a look, maybe there, she could find the answer in her heart.
Cuicui's hometown was indeed as she thought, even poorer than Qi Tongwei's hometown. The dilapidated house was almost left with only four tattered walls, as if it was about to fall in the wind. The broken walls were like hanging broken clouds, which made people feel sad.
Walking into the yard of my old home, I was struck by a desolate scene. Weeds grew everywhere, and the farm tools I once knew were rusted. Everything here seemed so dilapidated and desolate, as if it had been forgotten in a corner by time.
Cuicui looked at the scene in front of her, and an indescribable sadness welled up in her heart. She remembered the hard days she spent here when she was a child, those years when she struggled hard for food and clothing. Fate seemed to be particularly cruel to her, making her come out of such a poor place, but she was caught in such a difficult choice at the crossroads of life.
She paced slowly in the yard, recalling every bit of the past. Those days of working with her family were hard, but also full of warmth. She remembered her mother busy in the fields and her father's rough hands. Every corner here has her memories, and every landscape carries her story.
Cuicui sat on a stone in the yard, quietly thinking about her future. She knew that she couldn't keep avoiding it and had to make a decision. However, this decision was too difficult and she didn't know how to choose.
She thought of the prosperity and opportunities in the city. There, she could wear beautiful clothes, have a decent job, and live a comfortable life. She could meet all kinds of people, broaden her horizons, and realize her dreams. However, the city was also full of competition and pressure, and she didn't know whether she could adapt to life there.
She thought of the tranquility and simplicity of the countryside. There, she could farm and raise chickens with Zhang Long and live a simple and happy life. She could enjoy the gifts of nature, breathe fresh air, and feel the changes of the four seasons. However, life in the countryside was also very hard, and she didn't know if she could endure the poverty and backwardness there.