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"Commit suicide. Why do you want to commit suicide? Is this world not friendly enough for you?"
After hearing this, the girl seemed to sense that someone had suddenly appeared beside her and reacted.
She turned her head to look at Fujii Itsuki's plain face, subconsciously took two steps away, frowned and asked:
".Who are you?"
The train slowly moved away.
The wind and snow occupied the view again.
"To be honest, I understand your desire to commit suicide. I have had this thought myself."
Fujii Itsuki said to the girl, "As a fellow traveler, I have a suggestion for you. You just happened to want to commit suicide, and I'm also extremely disappointed with this society. I just lost my job. How about we commit suicide together? It's a good opportunity for us to be companions."
Seeing that he was trying to pull her arm, the girl took two steps away, with a vigilant expression, "Weirdo"
"He is indeed a weirdo," Fujii Itsuki retracted his hand, pulled the suitcase in front of him, crossed his hands to support the handle, and smiled, "He clearly wanted to commit suicide but didn't jump when the train came. His body and mind are completely out of sync. Don't you think he is a weirdo?"
".none of your business."
"Because of your actions just now, you delayed my time to get on the train, and that was the last train."
".And then? So what? Didn't you choose to come up and talk to me?"
"That's true, but if you weren't here, I would have gotten in the car directly."
"What's the meaning."
"That is to say, you must be responsible for me."
".what are you saying?"
"Didn't you understand? Be responsible for me." Fujii Itsuki smiled with his teeth showing.
"You should know when to stop joking, right? Be careful or I'll call the police." The girl was so scared that she took two steps back.
Fujii Itsuki acted indifferent and even stretched out his right hand to make a "please" gesture.
"random."
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"Why, you don't want to call the police? Do you need my help? Or did you run away without telling your parents and you don't dare to call the police."
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The girl began to get scared and took a few steps back.
"Why are you so far away? I'm not going to eat you."
"Don't come over." The girl became more alert, her expression tense and a little fearful, which made her look uniquely cute.
"You are so young and beautiful, why would you commit suicide? It's such a pity. How about this, why don't you come with me now? I will take you to experience the beauty of the world. You should like these at your age."
".what you up to?"
"Don't get me wrong, I still have some spare money, and I want to buy you something delicious and fun. If you are full, tired and happy, then I will be happy too."
Fujii Itsuki smiled faintly and tried to get closer while talking.
"Don't be afraid. When you get sleepy, I'll help you get a luxury suite in a hotel. How about that? Do you feel warmed up instantly? Of course, my money is limited. I can only get one luxury suite. I'm afraid I'll have to sleep with you at night. Do you mind?"
".Don't come over here." The girl faced Fujii Itsuki's smiling face, missed a step and stumbled.
"Girl, be careful. It would be bad if you broke your face."
".do not come!"
"Don't be afraid, I'm a good person."
The fear on the girl's face has reached an extreme level.
The moment she retreated to the stairs, she immediately turned around, ran down the stairs quickly, and left the platform looking back every few steps.
The slender figure quickly disappeared from sight.
"Hey! You're not going to commit suicide? Don't walk around alone in the dark! It's dangerous! At least -! Spend the night with me first!"
Unfortunately there was no response.
"Leaving now?"
Fujii Itsuki withdrew his gaze and shook his head.
I didn't want to meddle in other people's business, but she seemed hesitant.
Since she hesitated, it meant that she still had concerns and imaginations about this world in her heart.
This was exactly what prevented her from jumping immediately.
For someone who wants to commit suicide, it is not only troublesome for him, a stranger, to dissuade him, but also has little effect.
The fact that my words could scare her and that she was wary of me from the beginning showed that she still cared about her body and was not in a desperate state.
There are policemen in the small booth outside the station, and they are patrolling at this time of day. If I scare her, she should know who to find.
Even though Fujii Itsuki himself didn't like his past identity as a teacher, after all, he had been a teacher.
Well, that must be the reason why I chose to go up and talk to him.
It must be so.
Just in case, Fujii Itsuki took out his cell phone, called the police and reported what had happened.
Only after the police had collected all the information did Fujii Itsuki put away his phone, looked up at the gray world again through the empty railway and the telephone poles on the platform.
Come to think of it, when I scared her just now, she looked quite cute when she was frightened.
What a mess of ideas.
Fujii Itsuki shook his head, took out the last cigarette from his trouser pocket, then turned around, picked up his suitcase and left the platform.
Chapter 4 It’s her again
After spending a night in the Internet cafe, Fujii Itsuki set out early the next morning.
Taking the JR Hakodate Line across the long coastline, we arrived at the snowy country of Otaru. The blue sky turned white and the train stopped.
The sea was blue, and white snowflakes were falling endlessly from the colorless and transparent sky. The whole city was shrouded in heavy snow, which was so beautiful that it was beyond words.
Fujii Itsuki looked up at the sky and laughed.
When I opened my eyes for the first time when I came into this world, I must have seen such beautiful snow.
That day was March 3rd, Japan's Girls' Day, and there was a very heavy snowfall in Otaru.
I heard from the dean that he was abandoned in a cedar forest in the mountains that day, with an uncut umbilical cord and a bloody placenta on his stomach, and even the snow around him was dyed scarlet.
It was the director who discovered him and sent him to the local Xingyuan Welfare Home for adoption.
He took the dean's surname and it was the dean who named him Fujii Itsuki.
The educational conditions in the welfare home have always been difficult. Growing up in the welfare home, he developed the idea of teaching and educating people and the dream of becoming a teacher. He then began to study hard for more than ten years.
Thanks to the support of the dean, he was finally admitted to the Faculty of Letters of Kyoto University seven years ago. During his university years, he completed a teacher's internship and obtained a high school teacher's certificate.
After graduation, I worked as a Chinese language teacher at a public high school in Minato-ku, Tokyo, and was honored to be promoted to class leader.
I thought my life would have a perfect start from here.
But after these three years, the stark reality brought him back here.
Putting away his memories, Fujii Itsuki went to a convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes, then pulled his suitcase and walked to the edge of Otaru City, Shukutsu 3-chome.
This place is located in the upper left corner of Otaru City, close to the sea. Most of the houses are two- or three-story single-family houses, like a country town.
Following the impression in his memory, Fujii Itsuki walked through the narrow street full of electric poles, turned the corner, and came to the big iron gate of Xingyuan Welfare Home.
Snowflakes were still falling from the sky, and the sky was grayish white.
I saw the old-fashioned iron lock on the door covered with white snow.
Is Fujii Itsuki feeling more melancholy now?
He didn't have a home in Otaru, and the orphanage was where he grew up.
Although he had never called the dean mother, every meal he had eaten and every winter sweater he had worn were made and knitted by the dean herself.
The reason he came back this time was, firstly, he didn't want to stay in Tokyo anymore, and secondly, he really wanted to go back to Otaru to see the dean and Chitose.
But when it really came to this, he suddenly felt a little afraid to face the old dean.
What should I say?
I lost my job in Tokyo and was expelled from school?
The director has always regarded herself as the orphanage's proudest role model. She tells every child in the orphanage that she is a graduate of a prestigious university, works in Tokyo, a very large international city, and is an excellent teacher.
榜样
Fujii Itsuki smiled to himself. Perhaps only when he had just graduated did he deserve this title.
Now he is forced to return to his hometown, abandon his dreams, and even he himself cannot figure out where he should put himself.
Do I still have the nerve to come back and see the dean when I'm like this?
He was extremely conflicted, but finally he took out the key that he hadn't used for many years, opened the iron lock, and pushed open the door of the welfare home.
However, the moment after opening the door, he was stunned again.
The girl has long black hair, purple eyes, a white beret and a red shawl. She is holding a kettle and watering the potted plants at the gate of the yard under the white snow.
Why is she here?
Fujii Itsuki didn't know how to describe the feeling in his heart at the moment. It was as if he had caught a glimpse of a flickering flame in the distance in the dark snowstorm. The throbbing of hope was ignited in an instant and burned fiercely.
This girl is so beautiful and unique.
Perhaps it was the sound of the door opening just now that attracted her. When Fujii Itsuki looked over there, she also looked over here.
Fujii Itsuki came to his senses and saw the steam coming out of the shower head in her hand. He rushed over and snatched the kettle away:
"Stop! Stop! You idiot! How can you water someone with boiling water?"