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"Yes, I believe it." Li Zhimeng covered his face in pain, "I just started to believe in horoscopes in April, so after seeing the love fortune, I have been looking forward to what kind of person I will meet in mid-May. …”
"Then? Who did you meet?"
"Yan Yanzi."
"Huh? Who?"
Wang Ge was shocked.
Why is this related to Chen Yanxi again! ?
"I remember that it was the weekend, and I was looking forward to my luck and thinking about walking around," Li Zhimeng said with a melancholy face, "Then I remembered that my sister opened a cat cafe in Changchuan, and I thought I’m going to help out and see if I can meet my Prince Charming.”
"Wait a minute, the owner of that cat cafe is Sister You?"
"That's right." Li Zhimeng looked at Wang Ge doubtfully, "Didn't I tell you?"
"No...but it's not important. You continue." Wang Ge said.
"Then, I met Yan Yanzi in the cat cafe." Li Zhimeng said, "She wore a pair of old-fashioned big glasses, ordered a cup of the cheapest coffee, and sat there playing with the cat."
"That was the first time I met her."
Li Zhimeng seemed to remember something and winked at Wang Ge mischievously.
Then, he said in an affectionate tone, "That year, I was a waiter and she was a customer. I was a freshman in high school and she was a junior in junior high. We met by chance..."
"Stop, stop, stop! You bastard, don't talk like you really have something!"
Wang Ge couldn't help but interrupt, and looked at Li Zhimeng with eyes full of jealousy.
This guy actually knew Xixi earlier than he did! Damn it!
What would Xixi look like in junior high school? It must be very cute!
"Haha."
After a while, Li Zhimeng was very happy, smiled, and continued: "I remember asking her why she didn't go home. She said her parents had a fight and didn't want to go back."
"I feel that she is different from ordinary little girls. She knows a lot, and she seems to be very mature. She doesn't look like a junior high school student, so I keep chatting with her."
"She has a good temper and doesn't bother me. We just keep chatting."
"Then, I couldn't hold it back and shared with her some things about my zodiac signs. I told her that zodiac signs are really accurate. I shared with her that Capricorns are not good at learning, expressing, and expressing. She likes to be criticized and so on, so I was very proud to ask her what her zodiac sign was."
"She said she was a Scorpio, so I happily told her that Scorpio and Capricorn are very compatible, and she and I will definitely become very good friends."
"But..." As he spoke, Li Zhimeng scratched his hair and sighed, "When I said this, I saw Yan Yanzi's eyes."
"Even though she was wearing those big old-fashioned glasses, I saw compassion in her eyes."
A look of reminiscence appeared in Li Zhimeng's eyes.
That day, Chen Yanxi, who was still in the third grade of junior high school, after listening to her words, said to her in a calm tone and extremely cruelly: "You don't really believe in the constellations, you are just escaping, and you just regard the constellations as your temporary spiritual sustenance.”
"The reason why you think the horoscope is accurate is not because the Capricorn personality traits mentioned in the horoscope book are exactly the same as your real personality, but because you are deliberately catering to them. You are deliberately making your personality closer to the Capricorn personality traits. .”
"You want to hide in the label created by 'Capricorn' to escape the cruel reality."
"However, even if Capricorns are not good at studying, that is not a reason for you to feel at ease and not study."
Chen Yanxi looked at her calmly: "Stop being stupid. The horoscope is not a life-saving straw, nor is it an excuse to make you feel at ease and depressed. It is a shackle that restrains your true character and a guillotine that kills your countless possibilities. "
At the end of the memory, Li Zhimeng shook his head and sighed again: "What Yan Yanzi said was a bit too profound for me at the time. I couldn't understand it, but it just felt very reasonable."
"I remember that I was like a cat whose tail was stepped on. I was very angry and wanted to have a fight with her, but she ignored me when she saw that I was angry."
"Then I apologized to her again. I thought she was so awesome and wanted to be good friends with her, but she told me that intimacy is a shackle more terrifying than a star sign, and she didn't want to have an intimate relationship with anyone."
Not wanting to have an intimate relationship with anyone... The corners of Wang Ge's mouth turned up slightly.
Okay, this is very Chen Yanxi.
"Then, after I went back, I thought over and over what Yan Yanzi said to me, and for the first time I had doubts about zodiac signs."
Li Zhimeng shook his little head, "My grades dropped a lot at that time. My brothers, sisters, uncles and aunts in the courtyard all thought I was like this because of my sister's death, and they were all worried about me."
"I don't want them to worry about me anymore. Yan Yanzi is right. Capricorns are not good at studying. That's not the reason why I don't want to study."
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"and then?"
Wang Ge had finished eating his barbecue and bibimbap. He wiped his mouth and asked, "Since then, you no longer believe in horoscopes? But this doesn't seem to have much to do with you becoming a common girl now, right?"
"Oh, brother, don't be impatient, just listen to me slowly."
"Okay, you say it, I'll listen."
"Hey, you're so good."
Li Zhimeng said with a smile, and then continued: "At that time, I only had preliminary doubts, and I didn't completely disbelieve in zodiac signs."
"I'm very stupid. You can tell from the fact that I couldn't get into the top ten even though I tried so hard, so I couldn't understand what Yan Yanzi said to me at that time. I could only understand the most understandable part of it. "
"That's the part where she said I was running away."
"But I didn't take it seriously, because the horoscope book said that Capricorns have poor ability to withstand stress and often avoid problems. So I think this is not my problem, it's because Capricorns are like that. , so I continued to escape with peace of mind.”
Li Zhimeng covered his face again: "Ah ah ah, I was really stupid at the time. Looking back now, I feel ashamed. I want to go back in time and kill me at that time."
"Really stupid."
Wang Ge nodded in agreement, and then smiled, "But it's normal for middle school and high school. Who hasn't done a few stupid things in middle school and high school."
Li Zhimeng stuck out his tongue, "Fortunately, I didn't know you, brother, at that time, otherwise I would have been hated by you."
Wang Ge smiled and shook his head but said nothing.
This kind of thing is uncertain, at least the Li Zhimeng he knows now is confident, has high emotional intelligence, loves life, is silly and fun every day, and is full of charm.
He couldn't imagine what it was like for Li Zhimeng to escape from reality with the help of zodiac signs.
Just like he couldn't imagine what that sweet and lovely Yanbao would be like without experiencing school violence.
"I completely stopped believing in horoscopes later, at the end of May."
Li Zhimeng continued: "At that time, because my grades dropped and my personality became a little weird because of my zodiac sign, several of my brothers and sisters, as well as uncles and aunts in the courtyard, were a little worried about me, so I thought Do better in the final exam so that they can rest assured and keep studying hard."
"But, at that time, something happened in the hospital."
There was a hint of disgust in her eyes, "Our dean's son went abroad with the funds provided by the country to our welfare home and donations from well-wishers in society."
"The dean's old habit of getting a heart attack from anger happened again, but his money was also taken away by that bitch, and he didn't even have money for hospitalization."
"Fortunately, we all have poverty subsidies from the state, and a few talented younger brothers and sisters have scholarships. We don't usually spend much, so we saved everything. After scraping together here and there, we finally paid the director a series of expenses for hospitalization. .”
"But the hospital is completely out of money."
Li Zhimeng stretched out his hand to hold his chin, recalling what happened at that time, "We are not short of food and drink, because that part of the money is in the hands of the aunt who specializes in purchasing supplies. Our dean is still more cautious and will not put eggs Put it in a basket.”
"We were still running a kindergarten at that time. The kindergarten was originally for the children in our welfare home. It was an individual kindergarten. There were no tuition fees, no money was made, and the state did not provide subsidies. Our director paid for it to build and finance it himself. I paid the teacher to organize it.”
"Without money, the kindergarten can no longer sustain itself. There is no way to pay wages to kindergarten teachers. Several teachers have left."
"The teacher ran away, and some of the nursing staff in the hospital also ran away. There was not enough manpower in the hospital, and the younger brothers and sisters, as well as the children with congenital diseases and unable to take care of themselves, had to rely on the remaining uncles and aunts to take care of them. Don’t come.”
"This is not the biggest problem. The biggest problem is that after the director fell ill, although the other uncles and aunts had feelings for the orphanage, they were all illiterate and panicked. No one could stand up and stabilize the situation. If the situation is limited, no one can take charge of the overall situation."
Wang Ge listened carefully, nodded slightly, and asked softly: "What happens next?"
Li Zhimeng felt that the atmosphere was a bit heavy, and she didn't like this heavy atmosphere.
So she shook her little head and said with a smile: "After that, of course it will be me, Zhizhi, who shows off my power and turns the tide before the building is about to collapse!"
"Oh?" Hearing her start to act weird again, Wang Ge's eyes showed a smile, "Are you so good?"
"Of course, I'm super powerful, okay!"
She hummed and continued: "At that time, among the people who were still in the orphanage, the younger brothers and sisters than me were ignorant. The older brothers and sisters were basically in the third year of high school and were about to take the college entrance examination. I was afraid of the impact. They dare not tell them this."
"So, there's no one better suited to step up than me."
"Actually, I was very worried at the time. I thought I couldn't do it because I am a Capricorn with very poor ability to withstand stress. I am a little loser who can't even get into the top ten in the exam no matter how hard I try."
"But these are not excuses for me to escape. I can't escape anymore this time."
Li Zhimeng shook his head and said seriously, "No matter how weak my ability to withstand pressure is, I still have to resist. Even if I am really a waste, I will still contribute all my value."
"I didn't go to school during that time. I had a lot to do."
"If there is no one to stand up and take charge of the overall situation, then I will do it; if there is no one to take care of the younger brothers and sisters, I will take care of them; if there is no one to teach in the kindergarten, then I will teach it."
"I also called back some of my brothers and sisters who were studying in college away from home, but it was still very difficult. Many times I was so busy that I couldn't even take care of eating."
"But we still persevered until our director was discharged healthy."
After saying that, she raised her white chin and looked at Wang Ge triumphantly: "How about it, am I good?"
"sharp."
Wang Ge said sincerely.
It was just a few children who stood up when the adults were sick and hospitalized and had no money to maintain the entire orphanage and even a kindergarten.
It's really amazing.
"It was then that I realized that the zodiac signs were all fake."
Li Zhimeng sighed with emotion, and then hummed, "Why are Capricorns so weak to withstand stress? I have endured all this hard work and difficulty. My ability to withstand stress is obviously super strong, okay!"
"Yan Yanzi is right. The reason why I believe in zodiac signs so much is not that the characteristics of the zodiac signs match mine, but that I deliberately cater to those characteristics, so the zodiac signs appear to be accurate."
"It was also at that time that I truly understood what Yan Yanzi said to me."
"If I blindly believe in horoscopes, I will really become what the horoscope book says is a Capricorn who is not good at learning and expressing, cannot accept criticism, and has extremely poor ability to withstand pressure."
Li Zhimeng laughed and told Wang Ge what she gained from this experience:
"After I no longer believed in horoscopes, I finally reconciled with myself and came out of the shadow of my sister's death and my inability to make her happy before she died."
"Yeah, yeah, I'm not a world protagonist who can do whatever I want. I'm a little loser who can't get into the top ten even if I try hard."
"I'm just an ordinary person, and I can't do anything about a lot of things."
"But, brother, being ordinary is not an excuse to escape; being powerless is not a reason to sit back and wait for death."