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"I say it's time to give up."
Keiko Hatoyama looked at her and repeated the sentence again.
It seemed that her words had too much of an impact, and Xiao Wuhuan just stared at her blankly with an expression of incomprehension on his face.
"No, sister Keiko, I don't understand why you..."
"There has been no progress in your research in the past two years, right?"
Keiko Hatoyama interrupted her, she withdrew her gaze, looked straight ahead, and said calmly:
"I knew the result two years ago. Grandpa, he found so many medical teams and spent so many years, but they couldn't save my body. However, in just three or four years, Xiaowu Wanyou could do it again. To what?
But I know very well that you couldn't listen to my words at that time, so I acquiesced to your willfulness...
But now, I think you should have understood how difficult and impossible this thing is...
Karasuma, you have been able to persevere for this impossible goal for two years. This has far exceeded my original prediction. I am really grateful, really... But, it is enough, isn't it?
You have tried your best. There is no need to push yourself towards this impossible goal. There is no need to feel guilty about it. You have not done anything wrong and you never owe me anything.
Two years is already a long time, it's enough, the rest of the time... should be left to yourself. "
Keiko Hatoyama's words were persuasive and gentle, as if she was enlightening her idiot sister who had accidentally taken the wrong path.
Xiao Karasuma was stunned on the spot. After a long time, she seemed to finally realize what Hatoyama Keiko had said. She subconsciously stepped back several steps and looked at Hatoyama Keiko as if she were looking at a stranger.
"Sister Keiko, do you know what you are talking about?"
"I know, so..."
"I'm saving you!"
Instantly losing control of his emotions, Xiao Wuhuan clutched his chest and shouted at Hatoyama Keiko:
"I haven't even given up yet! What are you giving up here?! What do you mean by asking me not to feel guilty? Do you think I owe you something to do these things?! I just want to save you! Not to pay you anything back. !Do you understand?!
It’s only two years! There is still plenty of time! Who can say for sure what will happen in the future? ! Why are you denying all this now? Why? ! "
Tears wet his eyes. After shouting these words uncontrollably, Kokarasuma didn't even look at Hatoyama Keiko's reaction and slammed the door directly.
Different from the quarrel over volunteer issues two years ago, this was the first real quarrel between her and sister Keiko.
Chapter 685: She May Have Really Failed (Fourth Update, Tomorrow
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Karasuma and Keiko Hatoyama had a fight.
The point that triggered the quarrel between the two was actually not that complicated.
Two years later, Hatoyama Keiko thought that Karasumaru could give up and there was no need to waste energy on her anymore.
As for Karasuma, what made her lose control was not that Keiko Hatoyama despised her efforts in the past two years, but that Keiko Hatoyama didn't care about her own life at all.
She couldn't understand. She was obviously working hard for Hatoyama Keiko, and she was obviously trying to save her. Why could she give up on herself so lightly?
She couldn't figure it out.
Of course, despite the quarrel, that night, Kogumaru still went to Keiko Hatoyama's ward on time and took the medicine.
After all, quarreling is actually a normal thing between friends, and they are not children anymore. After the quarrel, regardless of whether there is reconciliation or not, she will do what she needs to do.
In the ward, Hatoyama Keiko did not mention the topic of letting her give up.
She was very quiet and cooperated in taking the medicine sent by Xiaowu Wan without any tricks.
It seems that this matter has just passed...
But Karasuma knew that it didn't.
Sister Keiko is not such a weak person. She is someone who will not waver in her decision just because of a simple quarrel.
She's just waiting.
Just like when Kokarasuma announced that he was going to Tokyo University Medical School two years ago, he waited quietly.
Two years ago, Sister Keiko believed that her efforts were absolutely impossible to succeed, but Sister Keiko also knew that she could not convince her high-spirited self at that time, so she could only choose to wait until she could see the "reality" for herself. Then give up.
The same thing happened two years later. After another failed attempt at persuasion, Sister Keiko chose to wait again, waiting for Karasuma to give up on her own.
And it was her extremely determined attitude, her attitude of "Yes, I am definitely going to die soon, so please stop working hard for me, okay?" that made Kokarasuma feel even more angry. The ground is hard to control.
Just because you are dying, can you just disregard your own life? How can you be worthy of those around you who have always cared about you and worked hard for you? How can you be worthy of Officer Baihe who is abroad and is always thinking about coming back as soon as possible?
But Karasuma couldn't even ask these words.
She really wanted to know how Keiko Hatoyama thought about these issues, but she still didn't have such a hard heart after all, and she didn't dare to ask.
She was afraid that these words would hurt her.
Time passed little by little in the cowardly calmness of Xiao Karasuma.
A few days later, the boy came back from London. He looked the same as before. Only after taking off his clothes could you see the gunshot wound on his chest near the heart.
Neither Hatoyama Keiko nor Kokarasuma told him about the quarrel they had a few days ago.
After the boy came back, the lives of the three people once again passed quickly in peace, and another year passed quickly.
Kokarasuma is still running between taking care of Keiko Hatoyama and the laboratory. As always, the boy is either busy dealing with various complicated cases or attending various meetings as a representative of Mr. Hatoyama.
As for Keiko Hatoyama, her physical condition became more and more serious, and her body functions declined rapidly, causing her to become lethargic. She lay in bed most of the day, unable to stay awake.
Ah, and there was also the skinny and capable Japanese public security officer. He would come to visit Keiko Hatoyama at regular intervals as he did before. However, since Keiko Hatoyama's wakefulness hours had become irregular recently, he often had to wait outside the ward for a while.
Yes, just like a year ago, or even two or three years ago, everything is normal and everything is calm.
But this peaceful daily life was something Xiao Karasuma couldn't accept.
Because this also means that all her efforts over the past year or so have continued to fail, fail, and fail again, and no miracle has happened...
Therefore, time was peaceful, and the lives of the three of them were not troubled at all...
Keiko Hatoyama, who was at the center of all the problems, had already anticipated this scene. She did not cry, throw a tantrum, have a mental breakdown, take her anger out on the people around her, or retaliate against society.
She didn't even ask about Kogumaru's research progress, nor did she try to persuade her to give up. Instead, she accepted it all calmly and waited quietly for her final end.
Everything is still moving in the direction she had predicted, and all of Kogumaru's efforts over the past three years have not shaken this result in the slightest.
"what--"
With a sudden force, all the bottles and jars on the experimental table were pushed down. Xiao Karasuma grabbed the small hammer on the side and smashed them all to pieces.
"Go to hell! Go to hell! Go to hell!!"
Her research has made no progress - this is something she has never dared to say to Keiko Hatoyama in the past three years.
No matter how much relevant knowledge she has absorbed in the past three years, no matter how many times she has had flashes of inspiration, but there is no progress, that is, there is no progress.
In the past three years, the less progress she made, the harder she worked. The harder she worked, the less progress she seemed to make. In this repeated cycle, her inner anxiety continued to accumulate, and she had already reached the limit she could bear. critical point.
A year ago, Sister Keiko might have noticed this about her, so she persuaded her to give up, so...she was like a powder keg, and suddenly exploded...
In fact, it was not just her anger at Keiko Hatoyama for despising her own life, but more... her anger at her own powerlessness.
Kokarasuma didn't care that she had spent three years on this. What she really cared about was that she had spent three years but couldn't do anything for Hatoyama Keiko. It was clear that...she had sworn it and she would do it. Will save her...
[That’s why you told me then so that I don’t feel guilty or indebted, right...]
"what……"
His throat suddenly hurt, and after a moment of venting, Xiao Wuwan grabbed his neck and slumped down weakly at his laboratory table.
Around her, there were broken experimental bottles and torn experimental notes everywhere.
"Woo..."
She slowly closed her legs, hugged her knees, buried her face in them, and sobbed softly.
She might have really failed...
That night, Keiko Hatoyama sat alone in the ward, staring blankly out the dark window.
It rained tonight, and the raindrops outside pattered on the windows, like evil spirits coming to seek life.
"Click."
Behind her, there seemed to be a sound of opening the door. Hatoyama Keiko woke up from her dazed state and turned around to look.
Standing at the door was Kokarasuma.
A little black ball that was so gray that it seemed like it would completely shatter at the slightest touch.
Looking at her, a trace of heartache and helplessness appeared in Keiko Hatoyama's eyes.
This scene had come much later than she expected.
Chapter 686 Okay, now it’s time to move on
"I'm sorry, sister Keiko, I'm sorry..."
In the rain late at night, in Keiko Hatoyama's ward, little Karasuma lay in her arms, hugging her tightly, repeating this sentence over and over again.
Failure after failure has long since destroyed her original confidence and broken her will.
Until tonight, when the experiment failed again, the string in her mind that had been stretched to the limit was finally completely broken. She lost control and destroyed all her research in the past few years, sitting there alone. I cried for a long time in the pile of rubble.
Then, she thought of Sister Keiko.
That brief moment of mental breakdown had disrupted her thinking at the moment. She didn't know why she came to see Sister Keiko and what she was going to say to her. She only knew that she had to go find her now...
She can only go to Sister Keiko, because Sister Keiko...is the sun.
On that rainy night, accompanied by the constant sound of water outside the window, little Karasuma lay in Keiko Hatoyama's arms and said a lot.
From when she decided to study medicine, to when the boy secretly came to her to discuss the matter in private; from being unaccustomed to it at the beginning of school, to striving to catch up and surpass all her classmates and even her own teacher; from getting a doctorate in pharmacology, to the first experiment; from the first failure, to self-encouragement after every failure; from inviting classmates and teachers to participate in the research, to them gradually giving up and leaving; from being full of confidence a year ago, to being on the verge of it now collapse……
Xiao Karasuma told Hatoyama Keiko all her experiences in the past three years. She told her how she constantly encouraged herself to stand up again from failure after failure, and also apologized to her for what she said a year ago. How was Hatoyama Keiko's words pierced her heart, and she became angry and angry at her...
During the whole process, Keiko Hatoyama listened quietly and did not interrupt her.
In fact, Karasuma knew it, or no one knew it better than her.
Hatoyama Keiko's current physical condition is very bad. She has very little waking time every day. It is unacceptable for her to receive a large amount of information for such a long time and cause her mood swings...