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However, she just couldn't help it. She just wanted to tell her all the words that had been suppressed in her heart for three years, and then say something serious to Sister Keiko...
Sorry, I failed.
"Little Karasuma."
During the whole process, Keiko Hatoyama listened quietly. She raised her hand and touched the long silver hair of Karasuma Koumaro, and waited until she finished speaking before finally speaking.
Her voice was gentle, still like the sun in Xiao Karasuma's memory. She did not mention Xiao Karasuma's experience in the past three years, but asked her a question.
"If you want to debut as an actor, have you thought about what stage name you want to give yourself?"
This seemingly unrelated sentence once again touched the deepest part of Karasuma's heart.
This is Hatoyama Keiko's unique way of comforting her.
Okay, everything happened before, don’t waste any more energy on me.
Now, it's time for you to move on.
"Woo...wow!"
With tears in his eyes again, Karasuma hugged Keiko Hatoyama tightly, buried his face deeply in her arms, and burst into tears again.
[I believe that there are only two things in this world that are the hardest, one is time, and the other is the bond between people. 】
[The former possesses nearly infinite power. Almost all things in this world that are said to be indestructible will eventually be destroyed under its constant erosion.]
[And the latter may be one of the very few exceptions. 】
[The bonds between most people will quickly collapse under the erosion of time, but there are still a few people whose bonds are stronger than rocks and can withstand the erosion of time for an extremely long time, until the moment when the lives of both parties in the bond come to an end.]
[There is no doubt that Xiaoqing and I have such a bond. ]
[But I hope that besides me, Xiao Wuwan can also establish such a bond with Xiao Qing. 】
Picking up a pen, Keiko Hatoyama wrote these words in her diary.
The time at this time was three years ago, the afternoon after Hatoyama Keiko suddenly fainted and was admitted to the hospital for the first time. After the boy received the news, he rushed to see her.
The boy didn't have any extra temptation. He asked her that question very directly.
"Keiko, you're going to be fine, right?"
His words completely broke through all the disguises Hatoyama Keiko had made so far. After all, she did not have the courage to deceive him again.
That afternoon, Karasuma, who had been hiding outside the door, worried that they would quarrel, seemed to be unable to bear the oppressive atmosphere and escaped from here first.
Since then, Xiao Karasuma has been curious about what she and Xiao Qing said after that.
That child...
In fact, they didn't say much, and they didn't say anything too complicated. It could even be said that the two of them only said one sentence since then.
Hatoyama Keiko remembered clearly that it was also a rainy day. Because of the rush back, many parts of Xiaoqing's clothes were wet.
After crying and apologizing repeatedly, Keiko Hatoyama quickly adjusted her mood. She is just that kind of person. She will be affected by her own emotions, but this influence has never interfered with her judgment. It has always been like this.
That day, after she wiped away her tears, she turned to look at the rain outside the window, and in a calm tone, she said something that made her feel a little numb.
"Xiao Qing, look at the rain outside the window. Every drop is a different scenery."
Ah, now that I think about it, this sentence is really disgusting and very silly. It was obviously such a sad and serious occasion, but she said such words as if she was trying to be cool. It really ruined the atmosphere...
But actually, at the moment when she said these words, Hatoyama Keiko still had a little hope in her heart...
She hoped that Xiao Qing didn't understand what she meant. Then, maybe she could tell him in a joking tone like a selfish coward, "Don't worry, I just read too many novels recently, and I'm a little bit interested in literature." The girl just moved closer...
But this didn't happen.
Because Xiao Qing understood the words the moment she said them.
He was indeed the Xiao Qing she knew, smart, sharp, but obedient. He knew everything but said nothing.
Really, with such a personality, it is easy to be deceived by those bad women outside...
I really don’t know what Xiaoqing would do in the future without me...
The moment she said this, her tears once again slid down her smiling face.
Look at the rain outside the window, every drop is a different scenery.
There are many other "rains" around you that are worth cherishing, so... from now on, don't focus your attention on my "drop of rain", okay?
She answered Xiaoqing's question.
Chapter 687 He must be killed first
Keiko Hatoyama has always considered herself a selfish person. The reason why no one has ever thought so is that her selfishness is different from that of other people.
She is only selfish for Xiao Qing.
If she had a choice, she would show her selfishness in everything related to Xiao Qing. She would hold Xiao Qing tightly by her side and never give him up to anyone.
But she had no choice.
Because she was dying.
It was really strange to say that maybe it was because she had been mentally prepared since she was very young. She found that she didn't seem to have any taboos about death.
Every time she thought about this matter, she felt extremely calm, as if it was a trivial matter as ordinary as eating and sleeping.
Obviously many people in this world are very secretive about the matter of "death"...
Of course, Hatoyama Keiko also has to thank herself for this calmness. After all, it is precisely because of this that she can calmly think about what will happen after her death.
The most important of these is Xiao Qing.
Xiaoqing was too fragile, and she couldn't let it go.
If you want to think about this matter, you must first understand what Xiao Qing's heart is like.
This is actually very simple, because Hatoyama Keiko has always been clear about this.
Before Aunt Baihe was killed, Xiaoqing was just a seemingly indifferent teenager. He had a tough character and regarded Aunt Baihe as the most important existence in his heart.
Later, Keiko Hatoyama suddenly broke into his life, and then quickly established an indestructible bond with him, and became one of the most important beings in his heart.
For Xiao Qing, both Aunt Shirakawa and Keiko Hatoyama are extremely important existences at this time.
Therefore, Hatoyama Keiko can unreservedly release her feelings for Xiaoqing...and this is where she thinks she is selfish.
Because from that time on, Hatoyama Keiko already knew that she was hopeless and she would definitely leave Xiaoqing early.
By then, no matter how deep the relationship between the two is and how strong the bond is, Xiaoqing will be in much pain.
But it doesn't matter, because Aunt Baihe is still here.
Aunt Baihe is also the most important person in Xiaoqing's heart. As long as Auntie Baihe is there, no matter how sad or sad Xiaoqing is because of her death, he will get back on his feet. He will not do stupid things, because Aunt Baihe is also here.
Moreover, Keiko Hatoyama had actually planned it out very early on. She would first be happily with Xiaoqing and spend a very good time with him, and she would keep it a secret from Xiaoqing during this period.
Only in the last few years would she reveal her illness to him, pave the way for him, and help him to calm down, so that he could calmly accept her departure. Leaving her too early might cause harm to him. The impact is minimized.
Ah... Thinking about it this way, she is indeed a quite selfish person...
However, what Hatoyama Keiko never expected was that Aunt Baihe would actually go ahead of her.
This completely disrupted her "perfect" plan. Not only that, Xiao Qing was also deeply affected by this incident. Even with her company, her heart collapsed uncontrollably.
This once made Hatoyama Keiko feel anxious and scared. She knew better than anyone that she had become the most important person in Xiaoqing's heart at that time. Once she left, Xiaoqing's heart, which had been barely supported by her, would definitely collapse in an instant, and she would definitely do something stupid.
But Hatoyama Keiko was very lucky, because soon, another person appeared in her field of vision.
That's Karasuma.
This naive little girl from the Karasuma family suddenly broke into their world one day and gradually became their inseparable friend.
More importantly, Kougamaru also likes Koqing.
This is something Keiko Hatoyama noticed very early on. This cute little sister, the way she looked at Xiaoqing, really didn't know how to hide it...
The sister Keiko in her mouth was a very sharp and smart evil-minded person. How could she not detect the emotion in her heart.
Karasuma likes Xiao Qing, there is no doubt about it.
And she is definitely aware of this situation in her subconscious, but it is just because of Hatoyama Keiko, so she has been suppressing and ignoring the emotions in her heart, and only getting along with them as good friends. .
Of course, Hatoyama Keiko has never been hostile to Karasuma because of this. It's not that she is very generous, but she knows very well that this kind of emotion is not controlled by human reason. If Xiaoqing had this kind of emotion and deliberately turned against the other party, it would be too petty and tiring.
But it was mainly because Karasuma just had this emotion and never took any further action...otherwise she would also be angry.
These were just Keiko Hatoyama’s initial thoughts.
Later, when her body gradually became unable to support herself, and when the relationship between Xiao Karasuma and Xiao Qing became better and better, an idea suddenly appeared in Hatoyama Keiko's mind.
Maybe Karasuma could take her place.
[Replace me and become the person who stays with Xiaoqing in the future. 】
Maybe it was because this idea had taken root in her mind for a long time. When Hatoyama Keiko actually wrote this sentence down, even she was a little surprised to find that her heart was so peaceful?
Her brain must be broken, there must be something wrong...
Normal human beings, when they push the person they like out and give it to another person, no matter how close the relationship between that person and themselves is, no matter how "right" the choice seems, no matter how free and easy she looks, Shouldn’t everyone feel sad, unwilling, jealous or even resentful?
Why didn't she?
Why can she be so calm?
Keiko Hatoyama soon found the answer.
Yes, the reason has always been very simple, because her brain has been different from that of normal people since she was a child, and she has had a completely opposite way of thinking from normal people since she was a child.
Normal people's rationality and sensibility are always intertwined, but she clearly distinguishes the two. Where it really matters, she will always make judgments based on her own rationality.
Just like here, her reason told her that letting Xiao Karasuma take her place to accompany Xiao Qing in the future was the absolutely right choice and the only suitable choice.
Because it was so right and appropriate, when she really made this decision, she could feel so calm inside. After all, it was right.
Strange, really, why are my eyes wet again...
Hatoyama Keiko raised her hand and wiped her uncontrollable eyes.
Yes, that’s it, because that’s what’s right…